#grief;

[phoenixaes]

If anyone asks what I really want out of an Albus backstory, I'll just direct them to these two videos --- an Albus equalivent of them

[unrealunknown]

God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone I feel like I'm being crushed I feel like everything has been taken from me God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone God is gone

[unrealunknown]

It hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts I lost everything I lost everything I lost everything and it's my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its always my fault its always my fault its always my fault its always my fault its always my fault its always my fault I ruined everything I ruined everything I ruined the most beautiful gift I was ever given I ruined my chance at life I ruined my chance at transition I ruined my chance at joy I ruined my chance at companionship I ruined my chance of ever being truly emotionally intimate with another human being ever again because there are things about this world that no one will ever believe and that I know to be true and you cannot have full emotional intimacy with anyone who will not fully believe you.

I destroyed the last precious thing a human can ever have because of my greed and my pride. I will never ever ever know human intimacy ever again because humans can be programmed to die.

[unrealunknown]

Forgive me I am mistreating you.

[unrealunknown]

I am incredibly incredibly lucky to have the life I have.