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Productivity anxiety has me taking a dump and feeling bad that I'm using up time to do it
Thinking of getting a Lamy Safari fountain pen seeing how quickly I run through single use pens and refills — which is quite frankly a lot of plastic waste. A good fountain pen would be better, right?
It's been raining so much. Humidity is at a consistent 90% and I am TIRED of it. My room is damp, I'm afraid of wall mold, and my clothes haven't dried
I'm moving!
I only decided on Monday and boy is it a journey. I'm not used to such rushed uncertainty with this big a decision. Even that time when I decided to go to hong kong and get there within the same there was nowhere as stressful as this.
I'm currently waiting for my faculty to send me the interstate permit and I'm only hoping that it arrives soon enough that I don't have to rebook my flight. I don't even know if my car is going to work after 1 year and how much cleaning will have to be done. Plus, I'll have to rely on my housemate to choose and finalize the new place.
Despite it all, I have a feeling that it will work out well. Not only have I planned enough, but luck tends to follow and make things really smooth for me. Please let this be like the trains
Ahh I think I did well on my computer networks test. Hopefully well enough to get a 4.0. I've been so stressed over the subject for so long but at this point I think it was just my inability to focus or retain info during class because over the past week, I've managed to reconcile a whole semesters worth of information with ease.
I was so worried that I was stupid or not good enough before. But all's good now
I'm so exhausted what with having to deal with things at home and the ridiculously paced workload in uni. I can't even function properly without spasming so i think I'll just skip tomorrow's tutorial. I have the material and answers done anyway. Who gives a damn about attendance
In an ideal world, I'd be actually enjoying my studies while working on art commissions on the side and watching i love lucy
Gah my object oriented programming and data structures lecturers gave us a test that they knew we wouldn't be able to finish on time. The average marks for 200+ of us is 6 out of 20. And this counts for 20% of our coursework marks. They REFUSE to give us extra credit work or to readjust for the next test. I'll be lucky if only to pass this class
Apparently it's our fault that we couldn't do the questions in time like they predicted
Uni starts again next week and I've been anxiously awaiting my results, dreading about my future, trying to cope with my crippling fear of never being smart enough, and dealing with being stuck with my family. Not gonna lie. It's been tough and it's gotten bad enough that I grind my teeth in my sleep and have stress nightmares about getting cavities.
I spoke to my brother last night and while I did cry, it was the good kind that helped relieve stress. I really want to get my academic life sorted and be able to excel. Though I'm not very social, I do understand that some interviewers care about extracurriculars of the club kind. And would you know it, I've been offered the one position I want on the ttrpg club I'm apart of.
Things are looking up