oh by the way you know how to use a 10-story trident right? :B Ol' Betty's still got Dirk's sword but I'm better with the trident!
groveofglades, I heard you like DaveJane and I heard you like robots so I made you DAVEJANE WITH ROBOTS not that there's an actual robot in the picture but HERE have some drift-compatible babes. I hope you like it, you're precious, I love you, I hope things get better for you and keep getting better and when things happen that you didn't expect or don't want I hope you can come to us to talk. *hug* Fröhe Geburtstag, schatz.
groveofglades replied to your post “Lately I’ve been trying to deal being in a relationship with someone...”
): idk about that. is it really worth the pain at the end? im just curious but why do you think it's doomed to fail? maybe it can work out in some way?
Eep. TL;DR under the cut.
I'll bring up the race issue first. Due to his race and being the first born son, he is pretty much expected to marry within his race where his wife will bear another son. If he were to even bring me as just a girlfriend to see his family, they would flip out and not only give him a hard time, they would especially attack me. I do not fit into their ideal expectation of a wife for him, and being a mixed blood makes this even worse.
The other reason is that we're both expecting to part ways eventually. His family lives in another state, and he's only living in the state I'm in to study as part of his agreement with his father as he was getting sick and tired of being with them and he needed an excuse to leave (he honestly cannot stand his family and their expectations). Once his studies have been completed, he'll be forced to return and take over his father's business. It's pretty much part of his "duty" just like the race issue above.
I have also expressed my plans to migrate and leave this country, and even though I would stay and work things out with him, it's obvious staying here would continue to hurt me. He knows I want to leave because I feel like I can never fit in here, and being in a serious relationship with him will eventually lead down to a path of pain, bringing back my fears of never fitting in, of always being the odd one out, of being the outcast. So we both decided that we will eventually have to let each other go.
It's tough. Like it's pretty obvious this relationship is doomed from the very beginning so you would think we'd end this by now. But nope. We still find ways to talk to each other and be affectionate. So I'm at a loss as to whether to keep encouraging this, or cut it off before we hurt each other eventually.
But in a way, I guess that I'm hoping the happy experiences would be enough to outweigh the pain. Which is incredibly naive of me I suppose.
groveofglades replied to your post:This is going to be a dumb rant, but I might as...
that sucks balls man >://///// how could they even….its beyond me :C but i hope youll have fun still. try to hang out with them a bit, yes? i can understand your hurt very well tho, thats just mean :( excited for the dress!!!
Nah, I can't. I'm tired of trying so hard to fit into this group when obviously I just don't click with them. I'll say hi and talk to them but I have no intention of hanging out with this group when they obviously have their own friends.
I seriously wanted to give up on the dress because of this cause FUCK COSPLAYING WHY DO I TRY SO HARD WHAT IS THE POINT but then I remembered I do it cause I just really like the characters and the outfits. So I'm sticking to it solo. Group cosplay is obviously never meant for me.
Thanks though, will do my best to have fun tomorrow. :)
groveofglades replied to your post:ignis-aqua-aer-terra replied to your...
is it more complicated than in french? ive been mulling over the idea of learning spanish in my free time but i havent decided yet.
I'm not sure what the tenses are like in French, but in Spanish there is some similarity to the english tenses, only with more twists and turns, so you never know which past tense to use, for example :/