Emptiness consumes me lately. I don’t feel happy, I don’t feel angry anymore, and honestly I have no tears left to give. I am empty. I am currently trying to pull myself out of this funk that I have stumbled my way into. I think that’s why I am back on here today. Well that and the lack of work I have to do today. I have been crying out for help to my Lord and I know he hears me, but I am not patient and I want to be better now. Why isn’t that how it works? Why can’t things magically resolve on it’s own. HA. That would be great. Wake up one morning and life is perfect.
Alone.. That’s how I feel. I can sit in a room full of people and I still feel alone. I can laugh and keep conversation as if nothing is wrong, but inside I am dying. I just want to be loved. Like truly loved. I want the kind of relationship that only happens in movies. Where’s my Danny Zuko? To be honest, he’s probably lost somewhere. Maybe he’s closer than I think. Who knows.
Unmotivated.. I do not want to do anything. If I could lay in my bed and not move all day. That would be ideal.. Kids, my job, and my puppy don’t really let that happen. So I go to work reluctantly and do my role in society.
If you feel this way talk to me because same. We can feel this way together