Guilty Sin - Prolouge
A pupcup university AU
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Finals was so rough and this was fun to write, if you want to see more lmk, other than that, enjoy!
It was cold outside, really cold. Boris had escaped the cold earlier just before it began to snow. He wasn’t sure how he was gonna go outside with it being freezing cold, and he only came in a hoodie. He could be fine probably, hes a wolf right? Even if it was cold outside, it was warm inside the university’s library, and quiet. The lights washed down the whole building in a dim, but warm lighting. And there was lined up bookcases, stacked with books on each shelf.
Boris was sitting in the nearby study area, where there were circular tables. A place where people could read the books they checked out, or just study and do their work somewhere quiet. He didn’t come to the library often. He preferred to just do his work in his dorm, with his CD playing nearby his favorite album. But his brother, insisted that when they both came here, that Boris would socialize, and not be closed off to almost everyone. And Boris was indeed stubborn at first, It was difficult for Bendy to try and find reasons on why Boris should go out, because Boris would always counteract his argument with a lazy excuse or even a good reason at times… Bendy eventually had to threaten Boris that if he didn’t go and try to socialize, then he wouldn’t be his Dorm roommate anymore. And that didn’t sound so bad, well it wouldn’t sound bad if you weren’t Boris. But being a guy with little to no knowledge on how to start up a conversation with people, he started tutoring. So that he can talk to someone with a reason, teaching them. And maybe something can stem from there.. But lately, the person he has been tutoring is kind of..
“HEY! YOU’RE HERE EARLY!”
..much.
Cup head strolled in with a small tray carrying two coffee cups, the hand held cardboard parts carrying a label that he recognized from a nearby establishment.
“Hey, it’s snowing outside!” Cuphead grinned as he took a seat right next to Boris, but he left a bit of space between them…a large gap actually. He always did this when he studied with Boris, and Boris wasn’t sure why he did it, but he did know it made studying a bit more annoying, especially when you teach others by showing them how and demonstrate it physically. Before he could even ask him, Cuphead quickly spoke again, as if he sensed the already impending awkward question.
“Hey, I got you hot chocolate, I didn’t know what type of coffee you would like, but everyone likes hot chocolate right?” Cup head said with an awkward smile on his face as he held out the warm cardboard cup. As sweet as the gesture was..Boris was a wolf. He couldn’t drink, eat or basically ingest anything with chocolate in it. However, he was surprised to be given something for the first time without having to ask, even if it was just something as simple as a drink. It was the first time ever since elementary school, where everyone was forced to pass out candy bags on holidays or birthdays, even if they didn’t like you.. Jeez, had it been that long? No, he had Bendy, who sometimes gets him trinkets or snacks if he thinks that Boris would like them..but then again, Bendy was his brother.
“Thanks, But I don’t drink Hot chocolate. Canines can’t really..have anything with chocolate.” Boris explained, and Cuphead could only feel a tint of rose color his porcelain skin, the first obvious sign of embarrassment. And soon after, realization dawned on his face as he pulled back the cup of Hot chocolate.
“Fuck, that’s my fault. I’m..dumb.” Cup head says as his hand slightly lowered. His awkward smile still not breaking as his eyes shy away from Boris’s gaze. The wolfs ears lowered slightly, on one hand,he felt bad to reject a kind offer, even though he could get sick if he accepted it. On the other hand though, he was taken aback to see Cuphead seem so embarrassed. He never seen him like this. Boris observed people around campus, one of them being Cup head, before he began tutoring him. You could say he has a horrible habit of people watching, but it’s help him avoid certain people whose behavior seemed like no good news. From what he knows, cup head is more of a prideful person, liberated from any type of shade or hesitation. He could say the wrong answer for a question in class, he could do a stupid act on campus grounds in front of a dozen people, he could do something that would probably make a average person feel shaky in the knees to have so many eyes on them, yet he never cared.
Boris envied him, envied how he was so worry free of the things around him, how everyone he came into contact with seemed to either avoid him, or just welcome him with open arms, and it was his first year. It was Boris’s first year too, yet it feels like everywhere he went, he couldn’t catch a break. No matter how hard he tried to act nice, keep to himself, or even just be helpful, it didn’t matter when at the end of the day, all anyone saw first was a intimidating wolf, not the soul.
“It’s fine, you can just keep it. I don’t mind,” Boris mumbled as he rubbed his snout. He wished he was tutoring someone else but him.
“…Ya like warm Tea?” Cup head asks as he looked over at Boris. For a moment, Boris wondered what he was trying to get at, and before he can talk, he was interrupted again.
“Look I’ll dump out the Hot Chocolate, the drink is overrated anyway. There’s a closer cafe nearby, come on let’s ditch this session,” Cuphead says with a goofy laugh as he spoke
“I’m supposed to be helping you raise your grades and keep your athletic scholarship, not help you—“
“My grades are higher, most of them are..B’s now” Cuphead quickly cuts him off, and that tempted Boris. Maybe ditching one session won’t be so bad.. The two of them exist the library, And Boris tightened his hoodie over his head, Trying to stay a bit warm inside his hoodie. Even if he was a wolf, it was a bit chilly, the snow wasn’t helping. They walked for a good 5 minutes, nearing the nearby Cafe. The walk was so quiet, the only sound that was heard was the sound of cars coming up and down the street and crunching the snow under its tires. Boris looked over at Cuphead, and as expected, he saw the cup shivering.
“Shit, are you okay?” Boris asked as he looked at him in concern, and before he could think about it, he wrapped an arm around the wolf and quickly walked faster.. ‘What the fuck am I doing??’ Once they arrived at the cafe, Boris held open the door for him and retracted his arm, walking up to the counter to scan the menu up above the register, and to try and ignore the now awkward tension..meanwhile Cuphead was stuck by the front door, his face blank as he thought, ‘what just happened?’ As much as he hated when people touched him, this time it didn’t feel so bad, as if there was no hidden intentions beneath it, or a fake kindness to it, he genuinely wanted to keep him warm in the cold.
“You gonna get anything?” The question snapped him out of his trance, and his eyes snapped back up, his eyes tracing the sound of the voice back to the counter a few feet up ahead of him, right, he was at the cafe, not in his arms.
“Oh uh, just some Jasmine Tea,” he ordered, and when the total was set, Boris paid without hesitation. There was a long silence that stretched between them as they waited. It wasn’t awkward, but it definitely felt a bit tense. Once they got their beverages, they took a seat in a nearby table by a window, both of them facing the window to watch the snow fall outside..
“Thanks for keeping me warm out there.” Cup head thanked, his face forming a grateful expression as he glanced over at the wolf, but as quickly as he looked, he looked away.
“Don’t mention it.” Boris said, his words literal as he wanted to forget the moment, how embarrassing to..hold a man so close…if any of the nuns at his previous living quarters saw that, he’d probably be screwed.. ‘Wait, there ain’t nothing wrong with that..’ Boris thought as he bitterly thought back on past memories that built unintentional thoughts and habits.. of course, nothing wrong with a man being so close to another man, but..he couldn’t help but feel the cross necklace that hung around his neck, feel unconsciously heavy as he thought more about it.
“Would you wanna come to my next football game?” Cup head asked suddenly, a small smile on his face as he asked the wolf. “It’ll be fun, I know a spot on the bleachers where no one will bother ya, my treat..to get you out more. I never see you out often.”
Cup head was also observant, just as much as Boris.
And for once, the weight of the necklace ceased, just for a second it did.
“Sure.”
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Phew, hope y’all enjoyed this because I’m very nervous to post this and more. ALSO, this is a pupcup centered fanfic, a ship from Myth Of The Machine, (by flygutz and nortsauce) it will probably handle mature themes (because these are grown ass men in university, also life isn’t perfect, And it’s supposed to have uncomfortable situations anyway, BUT no smut, only suggestiveness..) so I’ll leave notes before each chapter if I decide to post the chapters on here. I also posted this on AO3 /my account is Cinnaghxul. I’ll try to post a chapter whenever I can and whenever I feel confident in my writing.
ALSO ALSO, clearing this up because I overthought it, the title is reflected over my own experiences with internalized homophobia towards myself and how I viewed myself when I was struggling to accept the fact I was indeed Pansexual, I am not trying to whatsoever calling loving who you wanna love a sin, it’s supposed to reflect my own past feelings towards myself, which inspired this story, but also it’s supposed to reflect the characters own problems of accepting themselves as they are. I just wanted to explain the title because I get nervous and don’t want people to get the wrong idea. Love who you love and be who you wanna be guys!
Toodles!
