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❝ Do you believe in fate, Tatya? ❞ It’s hard to tell if James is already drunk or high, probably both, never mind the fact that it’s nine in the morning. He hasn’t slept all night, no surprise there. ❝ That’s what my mum always used to say. She said everything happens for a reason, but--- my whole life, I’ve struggled to find a reason or meaning for anything. But maybe, maybe... ❞ There’s a long pause, as he struggles to collect his thoughts, something James often does. He’s an intelligent young man somewhere down there, but the rampant substance abuse disguises it. ❝ Till I met you, I guess. You’re one of the only other people in our exclusive shitty little club of ‘parents got assassinated for political purposes.’ Politics. What a stupid reason to die, yeah? What a stupid reason for my mum to be dead. Maybe I would’ve been someone if she was still alive. Maybe I wouldn’t have been a fuckin’ drunk at the ripe old age of twenty-two. I mean--- I mean, you understand me, don’t you? You get it, you never stop thinking about it, it’s gonna haunt you for the rest of your fuckin’ life, and the only thing you can do--- only thing I can do, is to get drunk enough so I don’t feel the pain, I don’t feel anything. ❞
