jay ferin survivor guilt…. jay blaming herself for everything that went wrong….. jay believing she should have sacrificed herself to save people… jay thinking all this trouble is her fault….. jay thinking the crew (and world) would be better without her….. jay blaming herself…. jay preferring to die rather than live with that guilt and fault… unable to believe anyone that says it wasn’t her fault and she couldn’t have known and she did the right thing…… jay……















