#hails personal stuff

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Did a clean up on my dash because I was following nearly 700 blogs and I got it down to about 300 ish

Remade an RP account and I'm starting to write prose about his characterisation and certain events/verses that happened for personal purposes.

Restarted activity on ANOTHER RP account and it's been going well so far.

Been busy with Dutch lessons as well as my part-time job AND I got a seasonal job starting in October that is arts/entertainment related! Wish it was longer than just until Christmas but I hope it can be a good foot in the door/way to network/hopefully gives me a bit more money than what my current job is giving me.

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Ha. So.

I no longer have access to my oldest RP account that I had for over ten years on. That I made some of the best friends through it, that really shaped me into a better person, that I met my fiance on. 

And it’s because the email address I had for it became obsolete because I couldn’t log into it anymore and there’s no way to reset that password either. 

This is fine. 

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So...we have a date. 

We don’t know the exact year as of right now.

But we know the exact day and month we want to get married on. 

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Self care after these almost two months include:

Getting a meet and greet ticket to go see one of my favorite musicians in the summer and then getting a first row loge ticket to his second show

Knowing exactly what the next three tattoos will be

One is my mom’s handwriting in a dark purple ink. It will say Love, Mom (but I found a card that says always on it so I may get Love Always, Mom)

Second is Ariel from The Little Mermaid Playbill (Which I may see if I get the red in her hair more visible and the tail more green)

Third is my mom’s flower which is a carnation. It will be an ombre of navy (Yankee) blue and white with a stem. And a navy blue ribbon that one part will have the Phantom mask and the second will have the silhouettes of West Side Story 

Possibly getting one of them next week after I get paid this week

The handwriting one will be the quickest/cheapest out of the three

Looking into my insurance for new eye glasses 

Planning on dying my hair lighter to then color it purple/red/blue/probably an ombre if I have the time and money for 

Convincing myself that I’m probably going to be out of the not good household within the year or in two. 

It has been rough mentally and emotionally. But now that things are soon to settle down, one can hope, I can actually begin to take care of myself again and to live the life I know my mom wanted me to have and to do even if she was still here with me. 

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No one has asked for this, but as someone who fell into a rabbit hole of Oasis, these have been my favourite songs / songs that have been in my head lately (considering the most I knew was Wonderwall (and Boulevard / Wonderwall of Broken Songs), Champagne Supernova, and Don't Look Back In Anger):

Cast No Shadow

The Masterplan

Falling Down

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Talk Tonight

Little By Little

She's Electric

Slide Away

The Importance of Being Idle

The Shock of the Lightning

Acquiesce

Rockin' Chair

Supersonic

Sunday Morning Call

Where Did It All Go Wrong?

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Today is Warning's 25th anniversary.

I keep it tied in the ranking of my favourite Green Day album but if someone was to ask me what album should I listen to that isn't Dookie or Idiot, Warning is and forever will be the number one choice. This album has meant the absolute world to me since I got into Green Day to begin with. It deserves the renaissance that is happening with it now with them playing select songs off of it within the now ended Saviours tour (though they didn't play any of them when I saw them and I am still angy over it).

The amount of money I would spend to see all of these songs live would be enough to freeze my credit cards instantly. How I would scream if I hear "Misery" live for the first time in decades as well as "Blood Sex and Booze" or to hear a proper acoustic version of "Macy's Day Parade" near the end of the set.

I thank my lucky stars for it being consistent through everything I've gone through and will be going through.

Destined for anything at all.

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Oh yeah I don’t think I officially told the old tumblr yet.

But: 

I officially immigrated to Europe to be with Jimmy. I have been here for about three weeks now. I got my visa, registered in our town’s municipality, and I will be getting my Europe-adjacent SS number in May ish (could be sooner could be later). My stuff is currently awaiting shipment for a boat to get here within the next month or so. 

This has been the longest time coming as well. It should have happened earlier but you know LIFE (and an ongoing pandemic) got in the way. 

We also have a plan to be stateside for a week in July and we are also planning a week in London in September.

I am so happy to have ended the distance with Jimmy forever. No more crying at the airport as we board planes alone, no more wrestling with technology/wifi about doing video and audio calls for four hours a week.

We are just together and achieved our “future future” goal. 

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Life updates:

Leaving the store I was working for since the holidays on Saturday! It was not a great time in general. There was some people that I will miss and I had some okay moments at work. But it was a lot being overworked, underpaid and understaffed, and that I BARELY got any training throughout the seven months there.

HOWEVER

I am starting a new job and training begins on Tuesday! It is for a Vincent Van Gogh immersive experience in downtown NYC that is running until the beginning of January. It pays quite a bit more than what I’ve been getting a week and that it will be my first time back in the city in over a year since the lockdown happened. I will be doing multiple positions but I am hoping to be more box office/guest services. And if they need me for the retail store they are putting up I at least know how to sell merchandise now. And with theatre in general coming back in the fall, the theatre I was working in isn’t opening back up until spring of next year because they are replacing the filtration systems since it was an underground theatre. So at least with this position I could earn money and experience along with killing time until that comes back. And my ticketing job isn’t hiring me back yet because my seniority was too low for the call backs.

I can’t wait to go back to the Netherlands and be with Jimmy again. We are aiming for a winter trip after the holidays (and on the case he will be vaccinated by then) and to begin preparations more so in immigration for me. Our goal is for me to be moved by summer or fall of 2022 with a resident permit in hand. The wedding will be on hold until all paperwork gets finalized for me (and about what job I could get) but things are happening. We also have created our relationship document to prove that hey we are a legitimate couple and we are on the 2018/2019 portion of it which we will probably finish it once my work schedule and his own personal stuff gets finalized.