it’s 8 am, sleep is for the weak and I’m up contemplating about a LOT of shit. Like, a LOT.
I’d like to begin by saying thank you to @bansheeandfae for convincing me and pushing me to join Hallows High. Without you bby I think tbh I’d have never gotten my RP mojo back.
As the RP group comes to a close I’ve found myself reminiscing on the fact that after so long of not having a good muse to write with, it’s been so strange to feel that rush of creativity flow beneath my fingers. That I was able to meet a slew of new people who genuinely loved and sought out my characters. It is a feeling I embrace and adore completely. Also to feel loved enough for people to ask me, “hey after hallows high, what are you doing?” is something that no words can describe the emotion it gives me.
The improvements to my art, the general kindness of everyone and the accepting nature that was this tumblr group ultimately created a positive environment on an extremely toxic website. That achievement alone deserves applause. In Hallows High I’ve met new people, embraced new voices and more importantly, a really close friend ( ;) @bansheeandfae) and I reconnected and it’s just been...incredibly uplifting? Especially given the choking loneliness I had experienced prior to this.
I dunno to give you the idea of the warmth and adoration in my heart, I was at one point juggling 5 different chats at the same time of people who were actively seeking my interaction? People who say, “hello” or “hiya” or “imma tuch ur booty” and it’s not like before where I was sitting in a seat of my own hermitude with hardly any social contact. It felt nice feeling alive again I suppose and not like I was playing puppeteer in my own sick comedy.
Long angsty shenanigans aside, I’d extend a thank you and remind everyone that for me personally, this is not necessarily a goodbye. For in the end, you’ll always be able to find me, I’ll see you guys later.
That’s a better way to put it.
