I keep being reminded of the fact that like. over half of my oc fics that I wrote as a preteen are just completely gone.
I wrote them on an old laptop and it eventually stopped working, but I never backed up any of the fics, so a lot of them are gone forever.
I know they were cringey and bad and kinda embarrassing, but I still grieve the disappearance of those fics sometimes, and feel bad for my younger self who put in all that time and effort into writing fics that made them happy.
and I love looking back on my old work, as bad as it might be, because
it's a good laugh if it really is that bad
it's a way of reminding myself of how far I've come whenever the imposter syndrome kicks in
I'm still attached to the characters I wrote back then, especially ones that still exist today. their awkward phase is strangely endearing to me and it feels like looking through old family albums in a sense.
moral of the story ig is just like. back up and preserve your work, if you can 👍
even if it's bad, and even if you cringe at it, both your future and your past self will thank you for keeping that part of them alive.