#hardcore nyc

[stonerrpup]

Hello local show I’m inside you.

I am the sticky pit of the venue that stickier boots hit.

I am the arms swinging as you mosh.

I am the amps on stage and the cables crossed together.

I am the music.

[stonerrpup]

[stonerrpup]

Went to a hardcore show last night with a group of 14 people. Show got shut down cause there was either a fight or cops were tryna find a robber. Whatever it was, cops pulled up and music stopped.

I got stoned. At points I was anxious that no one liked me and ranted about college but everyone around me was so nice to me. I tried Marlboros reds after only having newports. I think I prefer the latter more.

Tried doing a drinking card game with my buddies in a McDonald’s but we realized that we all needed to know each other a little better for it. Really, how and who am I supposed to nominate to be the last to leave a buffet out of a group of people where I just met half of them? Whatever.

Basically tested my pain endurance by doing what I can only describe as forcefully high-fiving someone to see who would come out victorious. Apparently he used to do this a lot so he obviously won. My hands were so hot and tingly after. He gave me a sip of his beer.

The day after a show, I always feel a little bittersweet. I had so much fun with so many people and now I’m just. Alone. In my house. Outside of the city.

I need to get out of this town. When I spoke about college with my friends, that’s what was the general sentiment for my situation. Get out, go to an art college in NYC and start saving up for HRT.

I feel a little melancholic writing this actually. Testosterone seems so far yet I know it’s just a little longer and I’ll finally have it. I think, despite my fear of needles, I’ll do injections. Gel’s more expensive and injections are more infrequent.

Next time I’m at a show, I’ll ask someone to get me a black cherry white claw. I have yet to try that and it sounds good.

[spaceintruderdetector]

it was 1986 and  mainstream media was still unable to cope with punk.... oh boy.

[beardonick]

Don't know who's version is better sheer terror or the dead boys