This is really hard for me, and I don't know if i'm going to be able to word this right, but if you'd like to hear some no-so-good news click the read more.
So i'm going on a hiatus, maybe for a few days or maybe for a few weeks. I'm not really sure. But really it's not even a hiatus so I take that back. I'll still be on. I'm going to just work on this mini fic and that's it. So preference hiatus?
But anyways, what I do know if that the last few days i've been having panic attacks none stop continuously for days. If you don't know much about anxiety and depression i'll try my best to explain it. Now panic attacks can last anywhere between five and twenty five minutes and then your body will give you a break and let you rest. Sometimes it will let you rest for twenty minutes or an hour and then you're right back into fight or flight mode again. I haven't stopped and we're going on 48 hours.
It's something that i've been trying to work on for a long time, by myself, and it's not got to the point where I have no choice but to go to the doctor and get help. And i'm scared. Really scared. I also move back to (city where my college is) in September except im not moving into the forms im getting my own place, and that it just as scary.
I can say that i'm in no way leaving because anybody has been negative towards me or because anybody has said something bad to me, you've all been very sweet and I cannot thank you enough. Every single one of you. I can also say that I will be writing and I will post and go through my asks everyday still. If you really need me, and i'm not answering my asks and just need someone to talk to you can still tweet me and i'll try my best to get back to you.
I'm just in a really bad place and i'm hurting, and i'd like you to know that you have really helped me a lot, but I think it's time I help myself.