Jul 18, 2022
So after my sickness of seeing food/anything to do with food leaves me, I’m suddenly hungry. Probably shouldn’t have waited this long to eat cause now it’s gonna mess with my sugars but this is just frustrating.
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So after my sickness of seeing food/anything to do with food leaves me, I’m suddenly hungry. Probably shouldn’t have waited this long to eat cause now it’s gonna mess with my sugars but this is just frustrating.
I fucking hate my diabetes.
So in yet another depressed state due to being sick for a week and a half with a cold. A fucking cold. I can't get over common colds or viruses that quickly like normal people. I have to cancel yet another awesome thing I wanted to do.
With being sick comes the blood sugar ups and downs, the headaches, the tiredness, and the depression. Nothing is helping. Not my favorite shows, not junk food (technically should eat but my mood is whatever), and trying to talk to friends is difficult because they all live such busy lives and don't have time to talk. I hate it so much.
Crying is always going to happen and then that makes my cold worse. I'm so tired of trying to "be happy", I'm tired of keeping things to myself, and I'm tired of having to deal with all of this shit. I want to do a Disney Cruise so much for my birthday and climb Half Dome but diabetes seems to ruin so much of my life.
Friends are hard to keep. I become a burden, from what I've heard it my 2 ex-bestfriends discussed. I get emotional quickly and then go away just as fast. Dating is also a disaster. So that all makes the depression worse. I can't put these things of Twitter or Facebook because they don't want to be "brought down".
So if anyone who is reading this knows someone who is diabetic, please be patient with them, please don't get frustrated. We need all of the support we can't get. We can seem strong but very fragile at the same time.
Insatiable
No one, not a single person except diabetics can or will understand the INSATIABLE, UNQUENCHABLE, DEMANDING RAVENOUS want for water when they are high especially when its like 147 degress outside. No one will ever know how you make yourself sick on water because you know you have drank too much but your brain tells you to keep on chugging. Ugh.