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It is so tiring to hate someone you love.

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i’ll admit

looking back at my entries from two months ago, i saw how hurt i was. and every time i read it, i have to stop. because reading it hurts. not because it brings back old memories. but because right now, i feel so far removed from the situation that it feels like it happened to another person. and seeing that person hurt and writhe on the floor in pain like that -- it makes me feel sick. and it makes me hate you. and that makes me annoyed because i never try to hate anyone. but there are some things that can’t be helped.

i never wanted to hate or hurt anyone. but when i see those posts from before, i feel venomous. i wanna punch you in the face. because shit, what you did was just really mean. like holy shit. what kind of person are you. it isn’t because you did this to me. it’s because you could -- that you actually had the capacity -- to do it to someone. and that you actually did. i can’t believe you actually did that to anyone. you actually are a fuckboy. you’re miserable and horrible and i could never tell you that because you always looked like you were in pain and that you were always trying to do better. but guess what -- if what i found out was true, and hell, the fact you could do this to me anyway is evidence enough, you actually are as shitty as you make yourself out to be. genuinely. shitty. and i never say that about people.

i want to see why you’re like this or what made you do that. because i know that people aren’t bad. we either make mistakes, don’t know any better, or are sadly coerced into it by circumstances or weaknesses. i don’t know which case was yours. but either way, shitty case. either way, i still hate you. i hate you, but i also understand that you made a mistake. and that you aren’t perfect. and that mistakes can’t be helped. i hate you, but i guess because of that, i also ironically forgive you at the same time. i forgive you, but never in my life do i ever want you near me or near anyone i care about ever again.

and for the love of god, i hope you find him. or it. or she. whatever -- it’s the 21st century. because he knows you need it. i hope you find healing. i hate you but i still wish you well, because everyone deserves that anyways. and shit, if i had to be the sacrificial lamb or some shit then i hope that what you did or had to do to me wasn’t in vain. i hope you learn from it and that you never have to do it to anyone ever again.

putangina mo. heal well.