This is going to be long and angry with sprinkles of fuck off.
Oh my boyfriend is leaving tomorrow. When asked to do something i got told, i dont want to. I just want to play video games. With anybody but me apparently. i got dinner out of him and that was with him on his god damn phone most of the fucking time. "i just wanted to get past 1000" was his response when he saw i was upset. I suggested every thing i could, with the point of adding that i would pay and got told, "no i dont want to" to all of it. Fine. Just fine.
So after all that, i get my fucking asian stalker knocking on our door. My roomate,Bj walks in and "all you gotta do is tell her shes not home." No, because when you tell her that and your me, she tries to push past me and gets angry when threatened with the cops being called because she doesnt do shit. BJ, seeing me fucking angry, decides to point this out and follow me around my room telling me how angry i am and i shouldnt be so angry and such. Lets just say, it didnt work.
In an attempt to make myself feel better, i go to tumblr, hoping for a fucking laugh or something to make me smile a bit. What do i get instead?? You guessed it. Hate posts. Loads of them. Today was hate day i guess cuz thats what 90% of the posts are. In case anyone didnt know, i am a white cis female who is bisensual. (Thats what my friends have given me as a title, if you dont understand, just send me an ask.) Look, i understand that everyone that isnt white, male, cis and/or straight have been having issues. I know, i experience this is real life (have a bisexual friend and an asexual friend that a roomate likes to "Pick on" to the point that i always have to interject.) but i dont see why there has to be so much fucking hate. I love everyone, i dont care what you are or who you love/fuck. i dont. You could be a purple fucking monster that sleeps with every thing you know. You know what ill say, so hows your day going? you wanna go hang out today? Because i dont care! as long as your a good person.
So why the fuck do i have to see why people hate me and others like me so much. Im sorry im comfortable being a woman. Im sorry i wasnt born with some of my other family traits. and im sorry im me. But what right do you have to treat me like shit. i came on tumblr to find somewhere where i can be myself and instead i get shit on for it. Why? why do i have to get shit on to make you feel better? Because i have "privileges?" Is that really it? Thats fucked up and its sad when i have my friends of all different backgrounds, sexualitys and genders/neutality tell me im a good person but when i get on here, im told how wrong i am.
End rant. If anyone reads this, send hate. See if i care.