#hatwearingidjit

[ao3feeddestiel]

Air hunger

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/NeY6Wjy by HatWearingIdjit Moving around with a dead parent and another one lost in grief, Dean never really learns how to swim. It's okay. It's not like he'll need it to fight or anything. (He does). After a near death experience, the threat of water follows him around. Dean still doesn't know how to swim, but he has more important things than be afraid of water. (Too bad he can't avoid it). Words: 1857, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Categories: M/M Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural) Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Day 2, Drowning, Bad Parent John Winchester, Childhood Trauma, Bullying, Canon Compliant, Kind Of, Near Death Experiences, Implied/Referenced Suicidal Thoughts, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Love Confessions read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/NeY6Wjy

[ao3feeddestiel]

(a little bit) of softness

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/9Aahey0 by HatWearingIdjit The door had barely opened before Sam jumped up from the motel bed. "Oh, good, you're here!" OR: as Dean is being his grumpy self, Sam calls Cas to the motel room to deal with him while he takes a break. Words: 594, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: Gen Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Pre-Relationship, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, Fluff, Holding Hands, almost read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/9Aahey0

[ao3feeddestiel]

Good/Bad (Loved.)

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/TbyKIiL by HatWearingIdjit Dean stops being Dean and starts being bad. And then Sam comes back from Stanford and he stops being called bad. Like it never happened, he only hears it from monsters and one night stands when he bumps into then after not giving them a call. [...] Dean doesn't have time to be good, or bad, or nothing. He doesn't have time to be Dean. [...] And the ache in his chest grows and grows and grows until only the edges of him are there, avoiding him to be consumed full. It's embarrassing, but it's true. Dean just wants. He wants. Worst of all, he wants to be good. Words: 1151, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Series: Part 3 of Whumpcember2024 bc the world keeps turning even if it's on fire Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: M/M Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Other Characters Mentioned, Miracle the Dog (Supernatural) Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Dialogue Light, Forehead Kisses, Canon Compliant, Whumpcember, Day 3, Begging, I Wrote This Instead of Sleeping read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/TbyKIiL

[ao3feeddestiel]

To b(l)e(ed) or not to b(l)e(ed) that's the question

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/VyqLIvu by HatWearingIdjit He thinks about it a lot. Imagines it with ease. Taking a blade (they've never had a shortage of them), sinking it into hisleg hisarm hisstomach— He caresses the sharpsharpsharp edge with his middle finger and exhales. It would be so easy. OR: Dean's struggles with self-harm throughout the entire series and afterwards. Words: 1717, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Categories: M/M Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester Additional Tags: Self-Harm, Graphic Description, Blood, Blood and Injury, Canon Compliant, Until it becomes, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, No Dialogue, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Hurt/Comfort, Hopeful Ending read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/VyqLIvu