Famous Last Words
Is it the NEED to have the last word? I NEED them to know that they didn’t run my life and they don’t drive me now. Would it even make a difference? What do they do, just smirk when they read it?
How cute. They think. Trying to be a big girl now?
I know that I am going to feel more like shit than if I would just keep my mouth shut which is not as easy as you may think. I am little and my personality is HUGE! I have to be heard and if someone says I can’t do something, I will be first in line to do it just in spite of them. Oh, you can’t do that. TRY ME.
Not healthy, I know. We all do it, though. All the things you wish you could say. You typed that text 1000 times, but never hit send, corrected it, deleted it, retyped it and then eventually threw your phone across your bed while growling at the same time. I don’t EVEN want to hear no woman has ever done that...
I am not proud of it. You think I like being rejected and emotionally devastated decades after high school? You think this is what we look forward to after you are thrown into the concrete jungle and are given a plastic card that allows you to make all of these irrational mistakes and decisions that were made off of two glasses of chardonnay on a Tuesday at your bestie’s house?
Crying with mascara running down your face while screaming into your pillow. Wondering why this is where your life is taking you... Can we just get back on the bus and go back to the first stop where all of this started and have a do over?
Famous Last Words, Boo <3