the me-mediocrity - realisation
me-mediocrity ...
Love that word! Well, don't love it, I feel it.
I felt inspired to share today.
So i went to this (o rather a) womens network event. And after arriving we had to look for our groups. We finally arrived, all of us 6 ladies in between mid 20ies and end 40ies.
The first lady started to talk and BAM.. she was something. With beginning of her 30ies, she became something like a senior editor and then soon after she became “the boss”. the boss of a whole magazine! One that I know. She then dropped her safe and sound job, to go found her own “start up” company with which is successful in her 3rd year. A very strong personality, opinionated but you can feel the vibe around her, it pulsates, there is so much energy, so much of a women. Someone who is concentrated, maybe even a fixated on her job. And even though I don't want to change with her. I don't want to be her. She is definitely no mediocre person.
The next one was different but also great. On a totally different level. She reminded me of a friend. She was already on a longer journey where she had changed so much in her life, but it was inspiring. Especially because she was already at a stage where she was trying her dream and her idea with two other people. For me this Is what I always wanted, people to do thing with! But thats my personal preference. So, she is pretty young passioned and also a very moving person with a great idea and good cause. Maybe not as colourful as the first lady (:-), but in my stage at the moment the much more envyful situation.
The next one was young and had found her niche. She had arrived at her thing, even including a purpose. And she seemed very determined to keep on going the way she had started. Perseverance was her “word” of the evening and thinking about it, it makes it even more telling. Cause even though she might have arrived in her “job”, things are not always rosy and to keep it up in good and bad times, is one of the hardest things to do.
(WOW so many different thought now in my mind. Did I do the right thing to leave my found passion?)
And when thinking about the pre-last lady in the group. She seemed nervous through her fast speech, but also through her turning of the chair, back and forth. But then, then she said: she wanted to do a podcast with a really really good topic!! BAM what an amazing idea!!! Not mediocre at all! Jesus how I envy her in the most positiv way EVER and do I wish her luck.
But to top if of ... there was the last girl. and Women! WTF... well she, like the first one was NEVER MEDIOCRE AT ALL. No! She is a doctor in a VERY interesting topic, moving and first and foremost so much EN VOUGE!!! But WAIT, thats not it either. She does triathlons worldwide, gives lectures and presentations and she has written her own book, which will be published next year, really big with a well known and established publisher.
I mean, WTF ... How am i not supposed to feel like I am just the tiny little me.
But I really wasnt upset for being mediocre for the first time (I guess ever). I can truly say that I totally am awstruck by this power. By this sever strongness, dedication and perseverance as well as fucking hard work they have done. Their goal in the mind, their mindset.
And also I am sorta happy to be less. Just less.
Isn’t that crazy. On one hand I always wanted to be someone like them, and now I don’t. I mean I do, but with more personal life. (I think) ... well maybe I change my mind tomorrow, but its good to feel ok with not being a superflyer. Not to have the necesity to be the best. Not to be upset about not being were the others are.
I am truly and utterly happy at the moment with life as it is. Just now!
And even though I never thought it possible, I think I might have transitioned into stressless... so is acceptance of being just mediocre maybe something of a good thing?
Well lets talk soon. Bye!