About it all is the hollow feeling mutual you know like after Aaliyah happened but 1000 times worse
Hollow is a really good description - I felt like that initially and still do from time to time now, it comes and goes, but I do have a growing sense of hope and am trying to make the best out of a bad situation.
My feelings are all much more about the character of Ziva rather than Cote, if that makes any sense whatsoever. Obviously you can’t have one without the other but I am saddest over losing Ziva from our show.
The only silver lining I am holding onto in all this, weirdly enough, is that I do absolutely 100% believe now that the writers will want to deliver on Tiva for the fans. Truly, I believe they will want to give us that much. Gary has always indicated that it was endgame, he said that we will get there but enjoyed the small steps so now I think he knows that the steps are out, one giant leap is in, it will just be a matter of how they can resolve it in a way that doesn’t damage Tony’s character.
I guess I’m just an extremely pragmatic person when it comes to Tiva - until I’ve seen the last possible moment between the two of them I’m trying not to get upset or worried about it. Don’t get me wrong, I will absolutely be very sad once Ziva has actually left, but until then I am focusing on the fact that it’s not over yet. Not yet. And we don’t know how the writers will play it.
Aliyah was different because Ziva wasn’t going anywhere once the new season started filming but one thing I am actually thankful for in this instance is that Cote is coming back at all. At least we get some sort of resolution, even if it ultimately results in her leaving, because she could have (and I’m not suggesting she would have, just saying this could have happened) simply said that’s it, goodbye and THEN we’d be in a position a million times worse than we are now IMO.
Sorry, this has turned into quite the ramble but I hope it answered your questions and if it did, I hope that it perhaps gave you some comfort in the fact that you are not alone in how you feel but, most importantly, you are entitled to feel however you feel.