I keep getting rejected from jobs I apply to.
I feel miserable and alone and I feel like my existence is a burden. I’ve been out of university for a month, which means I have five more months to try and get a job before my payments need to pick up. I don’t have that much money in my account, especially if I want to try and enjoy my life even a little bit.
I don’t know what to do to be better. I need to make money. I need to get away from this stupid state. I want to break down and cry from how upset just being alive makes me. Nothing’s working, nothing is distracting me enough, all I want to do anymore is sleep for hours.
I wanna kill myself more than anything else in the world but I can’t and that’s honestly just making me wanna do it more.