ASK: “It’s not your fault, sweetheart. You did everything you could.”
and yet everything wasn’t good enough. it hadn’t been when it counted the most, because her hands were still dripping in red, no matter how clean they really were, and she had killed her own sisters at the command of the red room. the only peace she had now was knowing she was out, her mind now saved, fragmented and confused. “ i knew what i was doing the whole time. that’s the worst part i think. ” she took a swig of her beer, leaning back as she met nats gaze. “ so what do i do now? what life is out there for me? ” how do i find it?
Yes, Mayven had known. So had Natasha, and Yelena, and Recluse, and Melina, and Marina, and so many others whose names had been forgotten. They had all known. There had been a thousand moments they could have rebelled, twice as many where so much as a twitch would have gotten them killed. How much of a choice had any of them really had? How much responsibility remained in their hands anyway?
“If I answered that for you, it wouldn’t be an answer at all.” Although her words were of little comfort, her voice had the certainty and her eyes the understanding of someone who had trailed that same path. “But don’t let everything you have done and their deaths go to waste. You have to make something out of it.”