@iskariotes said : ❝ you’re wasting my time. ❞ :')
HOW TIME HAS DRAWN THEM TOGETHER , every spare moment devoted to trotting at his side , to overseeing his heart , to cradling calloused hands, and tending to the blooms that dissipate from flesh with far too much ease to truly be human . YEARS have brought them here and damned if he’d let this hurt so easily .
‘ stop that . ’ as if words don’t STING , ‘ you ALWAYS try to push people away , haven’t i told you that i’m not going anywhere ?! you and i BOTH know that it’s not a waste ! ’
———- yet it’s impossible to swallow the ache —– INFECTING his chest , rising panic , because despite pretending this devotion is ALL about guren , he’s selfish . what he can’t WON’T say is that he NEEDS it just as much , maybe more . DEEP , DARK SECRET . REACHING FOR THE FLAME , guren who cares so DAMN much about the world and feigns not to at all .
what good would it do ? would he be disgusted with how deeply alma needs this solicitude ?
‘ if ——- if you need some time , just say so . i can come back later . ’ FURIOUSLY WIPING at dampened cheeks , countenance downcast , ‘ don’t be so mean just to punish yourself . ’