There are days when I can feel God’s love pouring out from me to my community. I cherish each and every person, and yes, even those who I may not interact with as much or had conflict with in the past (which may very well still going on, but not quite sure). I can’t think of any other area where I would want to belong too. I feel loved, supported, and encouraged daily.
And other days where I see so much brokenness in our community. How conflict is swept underneath the rug, everyone’s timidness when it comes to having difficult conversations, an unwillingness to have true fellowship with one another and sadly...sometimes it feels that no one truly loves one another as BROTHERS and SISTERS in Christ.
We are missing the familial aspect of Christianity.
“That there may be no division in the body, but that the members may have the same care for one another. If one member suffers, all suffer together; if one member is honored, all rejoice together. Now you are the body of Christ and individually members of it.”
We are all following Christ and trying to live our lives according to his teachings. We are members of the same body of Christ, but why can’t we seem to understand that? Why must we let our own selfish thoughts plague our minds and turn us into destructive people, externally and internally? Are we not a Christian community that wants to reflect the very nature of God whom we view as sovereign over us all?
I get so confused because I don’t understand how I could feel so alone when I’m always surrounded by close friends. That should never be the case. And not just me, others probably feel the same way too.
I don’t think we are a “bad” community. Not in the least. But we definitely have a ton of healing wounds, growing in our faith, maturing as mentors and praying for restorative hearts to undergo.