Word Vom
Huh, maybe I should have done this last night when I was falling asleep cause it all made so much more sense then.
I like you. I have for awhile and it's dumb and it’s crazy and it’s scary.
And I keep thinking about how much I wanna kiss you and it's maddening, to be honest. Cause I think about it a lot and I have to catch myself from doing it a lot. And I probably should just take a leap of faith and do it and see what happens. I'm pretty sure by now Thyra would love for me to do this cause then I'll stop whining about how much of a coward I am and how much I want to snog you.
But what if I'm wrong? Cause I think there could be something there but I'm probably just projecting my own feelings on to the situation, or I am reading everything wrong or something. And if I did take that leap of faith and its wrong it would screw up our friendship and that would be the worst thing. Like for some reason the thought of dating you, be happy with you, and somehow it going to crap down the road doesn't scare me. But the thought of being wrong altogether that stops me.
Cause lets be honest I barely like myself sometimes why on earth would you like me. And I know you probably have the same argument rolling around in your head (probably most of these thoughts assuming you do feel the same or are interested or something). And I know whatever response I would give you for saying something like that, is probably the same advice I should follow but, its easier to give advice than live the advice.
But I wanna date you (even though I could probably argue we’ve been dating for awhile sort of). I wanna kiss you. I wanna hold your hand and be cute. I wanna be able to snuggle you and not have an internal freak out that I'm going to do something and it will make our friendship tense or meh. Cause I've had enough of those, internal freakouts.
Maybe I should just be bold, be like the characters I am always reading, but..........
Could you imagine if I pulled an out of the blue stunt like The Runaways?? Or Rose pulling Nine in... or you know any of the other dozen or so pairings we have.