#healerintraining

[champagnemamidiaries]

I’m a psychology student.

I study the mind, the emotions, and the reasons we survive what should’ve broken us.

I don’t just carry pain I understand it.

I’m not just healing I’m learning how to help others heal too.

This isn’t just a degree.

It’s my future.

It’s my purpose.

It’s power.

[kayladepuit]

lovingly present

“It ain't easy, it ain't easy It ain't easy to get to heaven when you're going down Well all the people have got their problems That ain't nothing new With the help of the good Lord We can all pull on through We can all pull on through Get there in the end Sometimes it'll take you right up and sometimes down again” David Bowie Lately I’ve felt myself judging. I’m in a place of being frustrated with the people I care about the most and I have felt oh so guilty for it. It has recently come to my awareness the responsibility involved in taking care of myself and creating the life I desire. Though I don’t know where my path leads I have settled into an attitude of being curious and determined to walk it and remain consistent in pursuing my joy. Embarking on a new year I chose to live and no longer consider checking out on my own accord. My frustration comes as a means to cover up the pain and sadness I feel when I recognize, beneath the litany of complaints a loved one expresses, their pain and sadness. Throughout my life I have always wanted to love people so much that they could love themselves. That they would want to take care of themselves and strive for their own happiness. It’s a helpless feeling when I realize it isn’t possible. No matter how much I want someone to love themselves or care for themselves my influence will have little effect until it comes from within them. On a spiritual,emotional and physical level I have felt the stretch of expansion and believe I am in the throes of a massive shift of consciousness. I woke up one morning and heard the words “I am a healer” echo in my heart. Having never considered this a possibility it took me by surprise. Then something strange happened. It felt right. I felt as if it was the purpose to my taking on this human life. I have since learned that in order to become a healer of others I must first heal myself. Forevermore, will I be learning to heal different issues that arise and it is my duty to be open to life’s lessons and opportunities. To listen closely to what it is that lies in others hearts. To focus on my own life and individual style of healing. It all begins with feeling my own love and giving myself my undivided attention. I must be lovingly present and open to myself and then I will begin to do the same with others. It’s a new experience bestowing love upon myself and I can feel myself blooming as I drink the liquid gold water. Sometimes I run from it, but with the practice and intention of coming back to myself, my breath, my body, my divine feminine, I am getting better at returning to love’s embrace. For within it, I am completely free.