@heartcoils ft. steve said . . . “ everybody wonders what it would be like to love you. ”
a golden girl fallen from grace, tarnished halo & shredded wings serving as the only reminder that she once walked amongst the heavens. she never liked it up there anyway — the altitude made her sick and the high and mighty even sicker. she wasn’t built to be worshiped. she had grounded herself long before stepping foot in hawkins, burnt her reputation to the ground. it’s what landed her here in the first place, taking residence in her grandparent’s spare room. it was just her and grams now, the weight of all that she could have been hanging heavy in the air between them as they sat across from each other at the dinner table in silence. better that than another argument.
this town, as backwards and out-of-date as it might be, was her chance to start fresh. no one saw that broken girl anymore. not unless they looked hard enough, saw through the cracks in a facade that had been so carefully glued back together again. but sometimes, in quiet moments like this, she fears that steve can see through it all, that she’s let him get too close. but if he’s still saying things like that, if he’s not running for the hills, then maybe she’s a better actress than she thought.
“ everyone wonders what it would be like to have me, steve, ” jen corrects him, cynicism seeping through, “ i’m the new girl. the shiny new plaything. i know what everyone’s thinking. what you’re thinking. ” but the way he speaks is just so earnest. maybe she’s wrong about him. she’s been wrong before.











