#heartsad

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drinkin real shitty wine and wanting desperately to slip

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i have so much love and care and romantic effort in me i need to find a good healthy source for it and stop misdirecting it onto u

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i can’t wait to find someone i care about who cares about me back, like i literally can’t think of a period when i was steadily happy with you and i know that’s not how it’s supposed to be

i don’t know why i am so stuck on this but when i’m finally free it’s going to be so good. so damn good. and i will look back on this year and forgive myself for letting myself hurt for so long, and i will be gentle with myself bc i will know how hard i tried. i will be so compassionate to me in the way you never were, i’ll know you never deserved everything i gave you but i will give it all back to myself and it will be okay.

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lol i forgot i can’t eat when i think about u

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do you know how manipulative you are?? still?

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wow thhhhaaat—-sucked!

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i fell for you out of nowhere and it sucked how do i return it

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i can’t believe you don’t and me!! after everything!! it doesn’t fucking make sense!!!!