#heath talks

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I logged in here for some piece away from the world. So I come back and I see so much art and silly memes and edits and it all made me so so happy

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why I was away and silent

Hey, lovely human, I realize I`ve been very absent here and so you might not even remember me anymore, and it`s ok, but if you do I owe you a little explanation.

For the last 10+ month I`ve almost haven't been active here because of the whole no NSF Tumblr thing even though I visit this site every day. And it`s not like I have been targeted by it or suffered in any way. It`s that it scared me. Commissions have been my source of income for 4+ years and it is largely due to Tumblr so when it happened and so many people left I felt so so scared. It`s hard to describe what kind of depth of emotional distress it pushed me into not to mention the fact I haven`t been happy with where I am in life professionally for a while did not help. 

I have always thought that I am a person who addresses problems ahead before they become worse then they are. But when it happened I couldn't even make myself post here. I couldn`t look at my blog, honestly, all I wanted to do is lie down and cry. It was tough. I tried being a more active couple of time but yeah, it didn`t work. The more I avoided posting the more scared I became for my livelihood up to May of this year when I started having full-on panic attacks when I thought of money.

I`m better now. And I should say my work didn`t disappear how I was afraid it would. I am still sad about it because having 5k followers here I think of tumblr as my home and what happened is just rough. But it made me become active on twitter even though posting there made me feel like I betrayed my place here so I did neither ahah.

Now that found the bravery to address this I will be much more active. I feel like I finally can be. I want to post my art and reblog and boost other people`s art I loved like I always did and the universe knows I am so behind on posting my commissions. 

Hope to see you soon xoxo

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Am I crazy or tumblr stretches images differently now? What is the size of the preview here?

Everything is so bluuury

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@m-oshun

Honestly same and I wouldn`t be surprised considering the amount of screen time. So I wanted to check if people on tumblr noticed.

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Just to summarise my thoughts. I am:

aggressively liking every artist post with links to other media I come across to follow when I have my shit together

deleting even innocent tiddy posts

I am staying on tumblr 100 % but starting twitter and instagram

having regreeeeets

thank you, everyone, who responded and shared your experiences <3

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Holy Fuck.

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Just a reminder. Because tomorrow I`ll be obligated to get my shit together and post there.

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pretty hard health talk

apart from hitting 5k followers today yesterday after months of wondering, I got checked for multiple sclerosis and I do not have it. It is such a relief but also I do still feel like I can jinx it just by talking about it. It made me anxious so I decided to put it out there and a big fuck you to my anxiety.