#heavy feeling

[sowkspirit]

[mochmint]

going off no sleep to watch my baby nephew who has a cold who was fussy all day and now i’m at work i’m so tired guys

[speaknow04]

Im so tired. I'll go sleep. See y'all later!

[walkinmyhead-blog1]

Sometimes I wonder if I have stones tied to my bones because my limbs feel heavy, and so I envy everybody for the way they move so lightly. It's like my muscles are strained from too much exercise except my muscles are not strained and I didn't exercise. There is no pain either. Just the feel of muscle strain. It's not a heaviness that prevents me from doing things - no, it's not a leash. It's a heaviness that adds difficulty to my actions - it's a backpack on your back while climbing up the stairs. A heaviness that one can bear for the first few floors, but gets more and more difficult the higher you go up. And for the first few floors, I can still talk while bearing the heavy, but after a few floors, I drop the talking because everyone else I came in there with has already gone up several floors ahead of me. Imagine that, but without the staircase and the backpack, it's just me and the invisible heaviness. // 012018, 1838

[aaanyyyceee]

Nightly Thoughts 16

11:06 PM

A heavy feeling, like always. Like it never wants to go away. Like it’s always present even when you’re at your most relaxed than you ever have been in quite awhile. Like the relaxed feeling shouldn’t be something you deserve. Like you feel as though you’re not doing enough with your life. Like there’s something that you should be doing, but you’re just too unmotivated to do it. Like being unmotivated only comes from feeling like you wouldn’t be good enough, if you ever can be. Like you know in your mind you can, but things happened, and you’re unsure whether you should try again. Like trying again would mean leading yourself to hurt, pain, rejection. And then just like that, the heavy feeling would still be prominent. If not, more than before. I don’t want this heavy feeling anymore.

[strong-banana]

Needing ways to cleanse the soul....

[thatorangedog]

Just a sad lonely bean completing sodoku and listening to the fray...