#heavy subject

[sigyn-foxyposts]

One thing that always makes me so emotional about Loki and Sigyn’s story though I really wish it wasn’t the only story we ever get of them, is the fact that Sigyn was forced to not only watch her beloved suffer, punished for a crime he probably committed out of revenge for what happened to his other children, but also seeing and possibly even knowing that their current kids were going to suffer for it too. Like… that’s devastating on every level!

I’ve seen so many interpretations of what happens in the aftermath, once they get out of the cave Loki was bound in. Some people imagine they stayed together, some that they fell out of love, some that they split completely. And honestly, i understand fully to why you'd see it that way, and I'm all for it! It just makes sense, and it happens all the time outside of myths too.

But personally, I can’t help but feel like they’d still be together, still struggling, obviously. That even with all the pain and anger, they’d choose to face it side by side, even if there wasn’t enough time left for proper healing. Because Loki is doomed to die, and we never actually find out what happens to Sigyn after.

Maybe it’s just wishful thinking on my part (and for personal reasons I won’t get into), but I cope better imagining them staying together. Even if you think Sigyn blamed him, even if it wasn’t easy or pretty, that kind of devotion just means something.

And no, I’m not trying to sugarcoat or romanticise the tragedy of it all, you have every right to move on from someone, even if they caused it or not. It’s just… comforting to believe in that strong kind of love and devotion. One that endures, even in the middle of all that suffering, because life isn't all sunshine and rainbows. No, not even in the myths our ancestors made up! 😅

[clazyhair-arts]

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I think this is the last post about this scenario… I think we all had enough talking about abusive relationships, right?

Anyway, I just wanted to draw this for two reasons!

1. Mabel being the one to not "victim blame" Ford

(Since often in the show, people like to point fingers to "Who brought Bill back?!" or "Who is to blame for Bill's chaos?!" when everyone should be blaming Bill himself! He's not some kid like The collector from TOH who doesn't know any better but it's willing to change. Bill is a master manipulator and likes to use anyone who benefits him! He literally broke the deal with Dipper by destroying the computer! And planned to get rid of Dipper after that! So I really don't feel any sympathy to those who say "Oh, but if you get tricked by a scam artist, it's your fault!" Like, NO! They shouldn't be the ones tricking people! Especially targeting people in desperate and vulnerable state!)

2. If you went through an abusive relationship, just so you know, it's not your fault. Take your time to heal. And if you're a child of an abusive parent, you're not like them. Don't let their cruel words define you!

Alright, next time, something less heavy! Some goofs and gaafs~

[jcollinswrites]

What would the ro’s do if mc got drunk and told them it wouldn’t mattered if they died and everyone will be happier you don’t have to answer this if this makes you uncomfortable but if you do can you tell me if I’m supposed to put a warning on the top of this for other people

Hmmmm I'm not going to answer this for now. Not because it makes me uncomfortable but because this scenario might happen for certain origin characters, in certain situations, in the game later. Sorry for the non-answer! ❤️

[thesleeplessdream]

Still Dream

So, I’ve been meaning to write this for some time now, and I’ll try to keep it short (believe me, had to edit this quite a lot -_- ) but it probably won’t be so I apologize for that..

(Warning, this might be triggering for those who have been through trauma/illness/accidents etc. feel free to skip this section)

Back in September of 2020 something bad happened to me and I ended up in the hospital (ER). For 24 hours I didn’t know whether I was going to live, neither did the doctors. I did ask them but they said everything would be fine, which, I understand why they said that but I knew even in my ‘state of mind’ back then that they didn’t want me to get worried.

I arrived in the late afternoon and it was almost midnight when I had finally gotten settled in my room, every half hour they took my pulse, blood pressure and blood sugar, not to mention to see if I was still alive. 

Luckily, after being given heavy medication and a lot of liquid (I hadn’t been able to eat for a week before this) I started getting better, still, I wasn’t out of danger yet.

After a week of slow rehabilitation, constant surveillance, more heavy medication (both oral and injections) the doctors felt confident enough to send me home.

I was glad to be back at a familiar place but of course things weren’t the same, I still have to take medicine every morning and evening.

Next week I’m getting a check up on how well I’ve been healing (X-ray) and they said it would take about 6 months before any significance change would be visible, still, these things take time. But for once I’m being optimistic as I have almost no symptom's anymore which I hope means something must at least have healed? :/

Anyhow..

The reason for that little story is this, these past months I’ve been thinking quite a lot about things. About life, and death, what it means to be satisfied and what true appreciation is. See back there when I was all alone and whether I would see the sunrise again or not wasn’t certain I realized a few things. One of which being that, no matter how dark things may seem, how helpless one is in the face of death or the unknown, the smallest things can make the biggest difference.

And I know it sounds cheesy, it is, but it’s true and I knew that before but now I think I truly understand. In the end, you only have yourself to keep you company and when that time comes I believe one of the best things one can do is to try and see the good side of things. And by that I don’t mean one should be happy all the time and grateful for everything nor ignore or fear what eventually may come, as this doesn’t just apply to these situations.

*whispers* This text was originally containing a long explanation of my thought process on how I came to the conclusion of what I’m about to talk about, but I don’t think you are interested in reading that so I’ll cut it here.. *whispers*

What I meant this post to be about was this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JLB9Nb1pIV0

See these past months I’ve been doing a lot of ROTG related work so listening to this is kinda ‘part of the experience’ + I really like the song ^^

But the important part was that, this song, however silly it may seem to some of you, has really helped me in more ways then I thought it ever could.

Have you ever read a book, seen a movie or heard a song that almost felt as if it was written for you? Well that is how I feel about the song ‘Still Dream’ which was created for the ‘Rise of the Guardians’ movie back in 2012.

I won’t go into too much detail about the lyrics cause then we’ll be here all day but in short, almost every part of the text I can relate too, which, funny enough I couldn’t before, or at least I didn’t care all that much for some reason? :/

Just as an example..

Time to close your eyes Over look the darkness - (don’t think about what may/will happen) And try to dream tonight Not so long ago - (before everything broke down, to a time when I was young) Your world was bright

Still dream And all the wonder that you knew Will all come flying back to you - (I think ya’ll can figure this one out on your own..) Anyway, I mostly wanted to post this to show my appreciation for both the ‘Rise of the Guardians’ movie (and books), it’s soundtrack and all the people who helped create it.

Really, what you made back in 2012 might not have made the biggest score in the box office, but it made all the difference to me when I needed it the most. Thank you :)

[singledadhamilton]

A Father’s Text (A Trigger Warning)

This does involve the subject of lockdown drills and active shooter incident. It’s something that’s still very difficult to talk about till this day. If this makes you upset..go to another post

Alexander: *Mixing the cake batter while looking at morning sun* Such a beautiful morning to start the day. Especially with summer coming very soon

Customer: Indeed, Mr. Hamilton it’s a beautiful morning that we all needed from the grace of God.

Alexander: Amen, sister

*Customer and Alexander continue talking more nonstop. Until then sudden not even three seconds later is when gunshots were fired.  Everyone began screaming and running from the shooter. Children began crying and screaming in fear as their mother carried them away. Men using themselves to protect their friends, family, and parents. Gunshot continue began shooting around randomly to any targets* 

Alexander: *gather some people inside his bakery before hiding them in the cooler*  Stay here while I close the close

Customer: But Hamilton, you’ll be shot to death if you do that 

Alexander: Then that’s the risk, I’ll have to take *rush outside before closing the door to the cooler* 

 At School During Lunch Hour 

Philip: *eating his sandwiches innocently* 

Eliza: *rushes to Philip as she began sobbing hysterically*  

Philip: Eliza! What’s wrong?! What happen?! Why are you crying?!

Eliza: *try to talk while sobbing* Th...There’s....Th...an ac...active.. Shooter at the bakery

Philip: *shock and scared* What?! Is Dad ok?! Did you text and call him?! Did...anyone....use his phone....*trying not to cry* 

Eliza: We all call and text but none of us got a response from him. So perhaps maybe he texted you instead just in case....*wiping her tears away and gathers the rest of the siblings* 

Philip: *gasp quietly before reading the text* My Little Lambs...as you receive this text. I don’t know if this may be my last text. As I’m typing this text I want to let you all my beautiful 8 little lambs is that I’ll always love you even after death. I’m also sorry that couldn’t do more for the past ten years we spent during our journey. I wish I could’ve given you more than I already have. I’m also sorry that I couldn’t be the best father you all ask for you. Yet, I know that I’m very proud of you and that you’re the lights of my darkness. You’re the Angels, I needed in my life and I’m sorry.....Goodbye, my little lambs 

*All the eight Hamilton was escorted to the principal office where they were just clinging onto each other. Crying in silent or just staring out the window with blank emotion*   

[mystery-anon-asks]

A bit heavier then usual, TW: mentions of death. I'm sorry.

You should be here

You promised you'd be here

I shouldn't be having to celebrate my third birthday without you

I shouldn't be having to keep all this in

I want to scream

I want to sob

I want to hate you but desperately want you back

But I can't. That isn't what I learned from you

So I'll keep everything in

We told you that he was going to get you sick

We told you that he didn't care and would get jt

But you still went with him wherever he wanted to go

Was it pity? Was it desperately clinging to the last relative you had?

I don't know. I can never know now.

But he got you sick. Now you're gone and he's still here.

And I'm stuck without a mom.

I miss you

[i-did-not-mean-to]

Put it to the people

Dear anon, I think you're referring to these two stories

Picking (Company)

Soul-scars (Fellowship)

I would be honoured to do that, buuuuut...I don't have favourite Elves haha...which ones would people like to see?

I guess

Lindir (because he's my fave)

Elrond (because he's cool)

Thranduil (because he's pretty)

If any of you want to see someone else (let's say 1 or max. 2), let me know 🙈

[valacre]

Please just ignore this, dear followers. It’s a heavy subject.

Does anyone else with avpd have those moments in their life where everything feels pretty good and you’re hanging out with friends you’re comfortable and happy with, but at the back of your mind you just keep thinking “Enjoy this while you can, it’s not going to last.”

And you just try to not think so negatively about it, but since it has happened before you just can’t help but think that it’s going to happen again…

I think the worst part is when I notice that things are indeed slowly starting to fall apart. That one friend you spoke to everyday barely responds to you, everyone is busy, some are moving away, and you’re just kind of stuck where you are.

And once you’ve gone back to the state of being alone and barely talking to anyone again, you just sort of sit there and scold yourself for thinking that it was going to be different this time.

Personally I struggled for months after a good friend of mine just stopped responding to me and ignored me after they moved away, and now that I’ve recovered from it (I’m apathetic towards anything that has to do with them now) I just find myself avoiding growing that dependant on anyone ever again. I deliberately ignore calls from other friends because I can’t allow myself to get used to frequent interactions. If I keep everyone at an arms length then it’s going to hurt less when they inevitably leave me behind.

I know I’m self sabotaging, I know I’m probably the reason for why they stop talking to me, but I literally can’t help it. I’ve gone through the pain of being ignored and abandoned by someone I cherished very dearly twice now, and I refuse to let that happen to me again. I don’t think I’d be able to survive it a third time.