#hehh..

[botflylarvaa]

Lowkey cackling.. my sibling is calling their gf instead of studying and I'm waiting for both of their downfalls..

[trash-monkie]

Lotus unadopted themself and Sam is doing the same

[chesterffield]

i want nanobots. tthatat t can kill, and will never be traced back to me.

[canwemakeout-blog]

wonderful~

if the fanfic isn't done before you get off, i'll link it to you babe i promise~ 

[kittyrawrrr-blog]

I found some stuff i wrote last year. :/

"I don't know what he's doing, but i hope he feels me in his heart too. I miss him, i really do. I hope he's content. and i hope he smiles, i love him and i hope he knows it. it's been hard. <- (^-^) But i know we'll get through it because he's amaazinggggggggggggggg!(: Pshhh. I should write a persuasive, wait no! lmfao. I should write a Narrative essay about my life an his, and how we collid. how i've changed and how much i love him. Honesty is powerful even though i'm not always honest, it's powerful! e showed me how to be honest with myself. and yes... o was/am honest with people but i never was to myself... see you later, gotta go to class<333" After noon advisory: " Back! Well, today was actually great, i participated and felt at ease. I loved Health class because we talked about Relationships and qualities that make a relationship great. And we fit into all of it! I know trust is on the line but i promised to myself i'd do anything in my power to show him how much i love him and let him see on his own that he can trust me. This all reinforced my love for him. you're amazing. i do know i'll do my best to keep this going<3. we've only been together for 2 months. but we'll know each other so well by the 5th month. and i know we'll make it together. i doubt you'll read this but i feel amazing and at peace when i write about you<3333."

Next day, i'm assuming.: "i've forgotten everything i've written but you're all that's on my mind<3(:" o love him SOO MUCH. i know we can get through anything together, i ask him for advice rather than my friends, that's something amazing? yeah? i mean, i haven't seen any of my friends that do so, and when we talk about relationships i'm always the one with the ideal perfect relationship. I'm the one they "Awwww" At.<3. and they ask how do we do it. how we manage to be bestfriends and lovers. Health class totally reinforced it. We're still together because we're strong together. Our anniversary is this Thursday! i wanna tell him everythinggggg<33 in terms of how i've felt recently, and what i see in our relationship i hope we can both list our pros and cons. and be okay with it or learn of ways to cope. i know his aunt doesn't like me, and yeah, it sucks but all i can do is redeem myself and get home to talk to him<3333. Ohhhhhand i know what i feel is different, i just hope it's really love and he won't hurt me. I love youuu<333. I gotta goooo. :/"

Back in advisory: "and it's the morning<- Meeeow(: I talked to him today and well he's adorable<3. Whether wanted to kiss or "Want" my bestfriend. i thought it was okaay. But even if i wouldn't get mad, why would he say that to me? That hurt LIKE CRAZY :/. And i set myself up for it, he's a guy, that's what they do. But i thought he was different. -____- I'm beginning to think i was wrong. Jochy is beautiful, why wouldn't he want her or want to "Try:" Her. I love her and i love him but i egret ever mentioning about her to make him say that. I didn't mean for it to hurt this much. What happens now? i dunno:/ Our anniversary is tomorrow and i can't wait. But i'll get to talk to him in person., Gosshhhhh i love himm sooo muchhh. why does it hurt? it's wonderful. you know? I feel sick, so sick. I don't understand why i told him i'd let him kiss a girl and it wouldn't bother me. Of course it would bother me, he's mine! :// I'm dumb. like who am I? -___- Who the fuck am i? I don't even know who i am anymore. i spoke to him all last night. I hope he saw who my mom really is.. and i hope he knows how much he can trust me. I wouldn't hurt him on purpose ever, not the person i want to be with my whole life. i'm so in-love with him. He's so amazing and i wouldn't mind spending it by his side. <3. And my....<- Don't know what i was gonna say because that was yesterday."

This was all in the book i used to read in adviosry sophomore year. :/ Wow.. I had forgotten about the jochy thing. I shouldn't have read non of this. I was so convinced he was all mine. how stupid am i. Damn.. ://