malachite
↳ has your muse ever done anything that they winded up feeling incredibly guilty for in the end?
When Kazuki was five years old he was a complete brat. Like since he had a kyoiku mama, he never got much in the way of emotional support of attention and often felt very neglected so he’d… act out a lot in order to get some kind of attention from someone! Anyway, this all amassed in a girl in his class calling him stupid, and he got so incredibly asshurt by it that he took a pair of craft scissors and cut off her ponytail, and he still feels guilty about it 22 years later (his mum also dragged him round to the girl’s house so he could apologize to her entire family for it, which I think only exacerbated the guilt, but hey at least he got the attention he wanted!).
That, and he’s also killed someone. Like when he first became a vampire, he didn’t have anything in the way of guidance and didn’t know what to do, so naturally he kind of… starved himself of blood and with that comes this whole loss of control and consciousness which understandably… didn’t end well, but I think owing to the state he was in at the time and the like… intensity of the trauma something like that causes, it’s very much repressed? So, it’s not so much an active source of guilt at present, but it would absolutely eat him alive if he ever remembered!
