The R. Tam Sessions // helenmxgnus
It was one of the Academy’s best-kept secrets: the R. Tam Sessions. Half the orderlies had no idea what they were or what they meant- they only knew that they were important. They were kept under the best crypting, in the most securely encoded, DNA-password-protected files in the entire system. So, of course, nobody expected that an underground organization working within their very walls would have been able to ferret copies out under their very noses.
Night had fallen at the Academy. Not that River would have been able to know, if her circadian rhythm didn’t tell her. Counselor was dead. She’d killed him. They knew that. It was obvious, she thought, to anyone who had a brain within their skulls. Some of them didn’t. Some of them had ice, or liquid, or darkness.
The orderlies wore masks.
She couldn’t see inside their brains. They wore masks so she couldn’t- so more information wouldn’t be leaked into River’s overwrought mind.
{but they still wanted to cut. One of them was dead and they still wanted to cut. He was a casualty of science - like those who had died on the table. A product of experimentation- a minor loss.}
She knew they were coming hours before they ever set foot in the halls. River fought, up until the sedative was injected into her system. Then everything was hazy- moving shadows, bright lights, her body being dragged along like a boat lazily pushed through the sea. A storm was brewing. Something was different, she couldn’t work out what.
{briefest of laughs, - like cracked wood, River thinks. No- like cracked metal. Metal being cracked. What?}
She felt her body being lowered into the chair- as soon as the metal hit her back her screams echoed off the walls, twisting, writhing, struggling. It took four to hold her down- a fifth lock her head in place as the needle was jammed into her head.
Then everything went dark.
The next thing she was aware of was that she was sleeping. Sleeping, but not. Everything was misty black-and-white behind her eyelids -
—another scream, things in her brain, biting, prodding, poking—
—little metal creatures, their beeping letting the orderlies know that River was alive, that her brain was working — letting them know how- but not why-
{footsteps far away, she thinks, footsteps coming- they’re not any footsteps she knows. Just dark shadows.}
River shook as they administered another drug- she was getting more and more restless, screams more frequent, her throat was raw from all the noise.
Her eyes jerked open and four or five of the doctors gasped and jump back in shock. —She wasn’t supposed to do that. Not ever.
River’s gaze shot around the room, eyes shifting- never really seeing.
{Someone’s c o m i n g. But they don’t need to know that.}
Her eyes slid closed once more.