For years I've always compared myself to the looney tunes tap-dancing frog: when people see me dancing I feel like a toad--but when no one is looking, I'm dancing alone in my room pretending to be a pop star (as if that dream hasn't been crushed) and the most perfect dance performance emerges. . I took dance lessons from age 4 to 18. Then "life" got in the way and I no longer made time to take dance seriously. When I see others who never stopped their passion for dancing, I get anxious imagining a parallel life where I continued that path. I see dance is their life, and I know that familiar feeling. I want to get back into it but feel left behind. . It's been years since I've danced at a studio, I feel too rusty and intimidated to start again. There are so many styles I have yet to soak in, my subconscious wants it more than anything. It actually takes more energy to stifle myself from dancing than to just let the music use me as a marionette. I can't fight it, this body moves to a beat before my brain is aware. . To anyone who has witnessed me tap a toe at a shindig and said "hey you're a good dancer" and I brushed off your kind compliment with "ah, that's like, 20%...that's nothing. That was terrible". I'm sorry and thank you. I think this one is probably 89%~ish 👌🏻. . Thank you to @lilli0369 for helping me bring my rooftop sunset dance internet debut vision to life and thank you to @makoto_tgjp at toni & guy for my perfect blonde (as always) for this shoot. Thank you to anyone who watched this and read this far. 🙏🏻💕 and extra special thank you to my mom for putting me in dance class all those years 👯 💦 . . This is why it says "rump shaker" on the profile.💃🏼 hope y'all enjoyed. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 . . music by the beib #dance #choreography #comebackspecial #hellomybabyhellomydarlin 🎩✨ (at Yoyogi, Shibuya-Ku, Tokyo)