#herpderppoetry

[teracia]

I just want my brain to stop

Just want my mind to stop

When letting go stops working

How do you pause the hamster wheel

Why is the shoe dropping

It’s not it’s not it’s not

[teracia]

The quiet comfort

Of laying next to you now

Serene and peaceful

[teracia]

You try to block out so much

Idk. Maybe I'm just the type of person

That wants to actually be close to my

family. But how can I when

An entire or the entire section of my life

Is supposed to be just ignored.

She is my life, this is my world.

And I can't and dont want to change that.

Then you ask me aloud

'Why do you dissappear?'

I am not a curse. She is not a whisper.

I won't be silent. I'm not a doll

Smile and nodding to be the piece of

The puzzle that has to complete

The home.

But its just your 'opinion'

You can't have both. You can't have my

Silence and have me there.

It's the entire daughter or none.

[teracia]

Lying down crying

Next to my love

Sleeping in peaceful slumber

Why must they always combat

Anyone Ive loved man or woman.

It’s true I do keep the peace

I’ve had to because keeping

The peace used to be my key to survival

How I got by

Day to day

In keeping a roof over my head

I haven’t really gotten to experience

Merri as a person

Until now

Being separated from

The clutches and the mindset

Of abuse gift wrapped in ‘family’

[teracia]

Something Missing

I used to always say 'something is missing.'

I couldn't put my finger on it yet

Something is wrong.

That exponential puzzle the absolute click hasn't happened

That moment where all the pieces off the puzzle seem suddenly finished

The universe screams 'Aha!' with a sigh of relief

When things feel like they are falling into place.

And like we've said....'everything we didn't know we wanted, or were looking for'

@iwinkinthefaceofdanger ❤❤