It’s kind of sad to be ignored by someone you care about....
One Sunday morning, I went to the church alone, with my grey cap, grey polo, grey pants, and grey shoes. I stood at the back since all of the seats were occupied by a lot of people. I was drizzling with sweat for a moment, but stopped when the priest started the mass.
During his Homily, I noticed someone’s presence from far away. Funny, I could still see her even she’s far away. I could tell that it’s her because of her curly hair and her posture. The whole time I was a bit distracted, but it was good because it left me smiling while the mass is going. I imagined going towards her after the mass. Happy thoughts crossed my mind while I was listening to the priest.
I thought she would notice me crossing the aisle where she was sitting near during the communion. It broke me a bit, but never lost hope. After the mass, I stayed there for 8 minutes and took a seat, trying to take the chance of seeing her and notice me. But my thoughts were reversed: I was ignored. She was passing by to my seat, just 12 inches away from me. My eyes followed her and I smiled at her a bit, but she still didn’t noticed me. Good thing I didn’t called her, but still...
You might think I’m over reacting, but this happened a dozen of times. Yeah, I thought I was lucky to see her in the church every Sunday, at the same schedule of mass that we’re attending at. But I wish I didn’t notice her presence if it will cause me to become lonely and grey for the whole day.
