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Headcanon: Sunflowers
When I was little, I had an obsession with sunflowers, and my father used to take me to sunflower plantations for my birthday. He never got me presents, because my mother thinks birthdays are ridiculous. Instead of singing happy birthday, my father would sneak into my room very early and sing You Are My Sunshine to me, to wake me up. Once I was awake, I got pancakes shaped like sunflowers and then we went to the plantations. I think sunflowers stuck with me all my life, and when I graduated my father had a custom ring made for me. It’s thin and silver, shaped like a sunflower, with the leaves wrapped around my finger. I rarely wear it, but since my father died I’ve been too scared to touch it. If I lose it, I feel like it will sever the last connection I have to my father. I often pretend my name is ridiculous and that my father was just using a misnomer, but in all honesty, I think he named me after sunflowers, because he said that, even though it was the middle of winter when I was born, he saw a sunflower blooming in the snow. He said I brought sunlight back into his life; that I was his little summer sunshine. That’s why he sang to me on my birthday’s too. The problem is that now, I’ll hear on my birthday “please don’t take my sunshine away” and my sunshine is already gone. All that’s left is a sunflower, but a sunflower is meant to follow sunshine, and how can sunflowers do that without sunshine? I feel lost now because nobody knows me like my father did, and sunflowers remind me of that.
Sunflowers, to me, now symbolize a brightness that my life is lacking, and I try to see them as positive. I haven’t seen one in weeks, and I’m starting to lose hope that I ever will again. I think that maybe, if I do see a sunflower, it will be like my father is speaking to me, telling me everything will be alright and that the sun hasn’t gone out, because even in the middle of winter, a sunflower will grow somewhere.
Character Questionnaire
1. How does your character think of their father? What do they hate and love about him? What influence - literal or imagined - did the father have?
Lilly and her father had a very average relationship. She hates how set-in-his-ways he can be, but she also realizes that it can be an endearing quality if viewed the right way. She loves that he can see the good in everyone, and tries to make the best of every situation. Lilly's father played a big part in her character today, because he was a very good role model for how to treat others and how to behave well in all situations.
2. Their mother? How do they think of her? What do they hate? Love? What influence - literal or imagined - did the mother have?
Lilly's mother died when she was very young, and she doesn't remember a lot about her. She remembers some things, like the scent of Chanel Number 5 and the way that she would brush her hair 100 strokes every morning, to make it shine. However, Lilly's step-mother, Suzanne, was a big influence on her childhood. Lilly hated that Suzanne was seemingly a two-faced person, always nice to everyone even if she didn't like them. But as she grew up she realized that rather than being two-faced or deceitful, it was really just pleasant manners. Lilly loved that Suzanne always radiated a confident and happy outlook on life, and frequently repeated the mantra that "Although life may not be all sunshine and smiles, that doesn't mean you can't look at it that way." Suzanne influenced Lilly's life by teaching her to remain positive.
3. Brothers, sisters? Who do they like? Why? What do they despise about their siblings?
Lilly has four older siblings, two younger siblings, and five more half-siblings that are much younger. She has very little contact with most of them, as a lot of them wrote her off after she was admitted to a mental facility for treatment in her early twenties. However Lilly always manages to keep in contact with her young nieces and nephews, as well as her younger siblings who make an effort to talk to her.
4. What type of discipline was your character subjected to at home? Strict? Lenient?
Lilly's parents never really had to be very strict disciplinarians, because Lilly never really acted up as a child.
5. Were they overprotected as a child? Sheltered?
Between the multitude of siblings and her very involved parents, Lilly was definitely protected. She was not very sheltered, simply because her parents saw no real danger to shelter her from in their small town.
6. Did they feel rejection or affection as a child?
Lilly was surrounded by affection throughout her childhood. Her family was always very supportive and kind.
7. What was the economic status of their family?
Average, to lower-middle class. Her stepmother worked at a bank and her father helped run a huge farm, so they always had what they needed, but there was not a lot of excess money available at all times.
8. How does your character feel about religion?
Lilly was raised in Church of Christ Christian belief systems, and she never really rejected any type of religion. She does not actively practice any religion, but she is identifies herself as a Christian. (Which is slightly ironic, because her fiance also identifies as Christian.)
9. What about political beliefs?
Lilly identifies as a Libertarian, although she rarely gets involved in politics.
10. Is your character street-smart, book-smart, intelligent, intellectual, slow-witted?
Lilly is very book-smart, but she is also very naive.
11. How do they see themselves: as smart, as intelligent, uneducated?
Lilly sees herself as average, for the most part. She realizes she was very lucky to obtain the education she did, although she also accepts that there are many people who are much more well-educated than she.
12. How does their education and intelligence – or lack thereof - reflect in their speech pattern, vocabulary, and pronunciations?
How the fuck do I answer this I have no idea what to say here
13. Did they like school? Teachers? Schoolmates?
Lilly enjoyed school very much. She never really had any issues, except for a few gym and science classes that she hated in high school. Her teachers were generally very kindhearted, with few exceptions, and the same can be said for her schoolmates.
14. Were they involved at school? Sports? Clubs? Debate? Were they unconnected?
Lilly was always involved in yearbook planning for her school, as well as some cheerleading and things of the like. She joined the chess club but was only a member for a year due to her lack of competitive spirit. She also was an avid member of her school's Home Economics program.
15. Did they graduate? High-School? College? Do they have a PHD? A GED?
Lilly did not graduate high school. She got married in the beginning of her 11th grade year and dropped out to attempt to be a homemaker. After a couple of years of marriage, her husband was working in a warehouse and left Lilly home alone for long periods of time with nothing to do, so she began going to GED classes to get some sort of degree. After her marriages abrupt end and her stay in Kensington Valley Mental Treatment Facility, she graduated from nursing school with honors.
16. What does your character do for a living? How do they see their profession? What do they like about it? Dislike?
Lilly is a nurse at West Harbor Mental Health Community, but also helps out with a lot of the housekeeping aspects of the community. She loves her profession because she loves being able to help others even when they can't help themselves. She doesn't like how dirty a lot of the patients can be.
17. Did they travel? Where? Why? When?
Lilly has never traveled outside of the United States.
18. What did they find abroad, and what did they remember?
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19. What were your character's deepest disillusions? In life? What are they now?
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20. What were the most deeply impressive political or social, national or international, events that they experienced?
Lilly was on a vacation with her stepmother in New York on September 11, 2001.
21. What are your character's manners like? What is their type of hero? Whom do they hate?
Anyone who knows Lilly knows that she is very well mannered and polite to everyone, with very few exceptions. (i.e. Victor, Kaylee, and anyone who threatens things she cares about.) Lilly's type of hero would be all of the other staff members at West Harbor, and those who were lost in the Home for the Helpless Fire. She hates people who have sour outlooks on life, and people who think too highly of themselves.
22. Who are their friends? Lovers? 'Type' or 'ideal' partner?
Lilly is friends with most of the people in the community, but she considers Madison, Aiden, Meredith and Barrett to be her best friend. She is engaged to Christian Austin, who she has been dating exclusively for almost a year. Her type consists of tall men who do a lot to help others, and who are very calm and collected. (The polar opposite of her first husband.)
23. What do they want from a partner? What do they think of sex?
At this point in her life, Lilly wants someone who is stable and driven, while still being passionate and adventurous. She feels that intimacy is important in relationships but it is not the defining factor.
24. What social groups and activities does your character attend? What role do they like to play? What role do they actually play, usually?
Lilly generally does not get involved with many social groups. She would like to play the role of a fun, laid back authority figure, but typically she is more of a maternal, psychotically clean figure.
25. What are their hobbies and interests?
Her hobbies include baking, cleaning, decorating, playing with her cat, reading, and things of the like. Lilly is interested in pretty much anything that will keep her occupied throughout the day when she isn't working.
26. What does your character's home look like? Personal taste? Clothing? Hair? Appearance?
Lilly's home is very organized and clean. Everything has it's place, and that is how she likes it. Clutter makes her feel anxious, and she doesn't like to be surrounded by it. She figures that her head is already messy enough, she doesn't need a messy home added to the mix. There is an abundance of light blue, pink and white decorations in her home. Her personal taste can be described as American Classic with Romantic undertones. She wears a lot of sweaters, but never sweatpants. Her hair is generally kept very clean, wavy, and down. She has an overall tidy appearance.
27. How do they relate to their appearance? How do they wear their clothing? Style? Quality?
What
28. Who is your character's mate? How do they relate to him or her? How did they make their choice?
What
29. What is your character's weaknesses? Hubris? Pride? Controlling?
Lilly is a very anxious person, and she lets it get the better of her sometimes.
30. Are they holding on to something in the past? Can he or she forgive?
She is very forgiving but she does not easily forget.
31. Does your character have children? How do they feel about their parental role? About the children?
She has many people that she refers to as her children, but no biological children. She feels very proud and lucky to have them in her life.
32. How does your character react to stress situations? Defensively? Aggressively? Evasively?
She will attempt to face them head-on, but eventually will break down. She's not good under pressure, and she keeps her nerves bottled up inside of her until they eventually all spill out and cause a massive panic attack.
33. Do they drink? Take drugs? What about their health?
She drinks often, but she rarely actually gets drunk. She does not take drugs, aside from her anti-anxiety and sleeping pills, as well as the occasional allergy and cold medication. She is in very good health.
34. Does your character feel self-righteous? Revengeful? Contemptuous?
No.
35. Do they always rationalize errors? How do they accept disasters and failures?
Lilly tends to blame herself for things a lot of the time.
36. Do they like to suffer? Like to see other people suffering?
No and no.
37. How is your character's imagination? Daydreaming a lot? Worried most of the time? Living in memories?
She is worried very often, and typically has flashbacks to her past but she also likes to think about the future and how she hopes her life will be with her family and friends.
38. Are they basically negative when facing new things? Suspicious? Hostile? Scared? Enthusiastic?
She is enthusiastic and excited, although secretly very fearful.
39. What do they like to ridicule? What do they find stupid?
Nothing.
40. How is their sense of humor? Do they have one?
Lilly has a very simple sense of humor. She can be sarcastic, but she finds offensive or crude humor to be in very poor taste.
41. Is your character aware of who they are? Strengths? Weaknesses? Idiosyncrasies? Capable of self-irony?
Lilly thinks herself to be stronger and tougher emotionally than she is. She feels as though she can take on anyone, any time, any place, when really she isn't emotionally capable of doing so.
42. What does your character want most? What do they need really badly, compulsively? What are they willing to do, to sacrifice, to obtain?
A happy life. She compulsively needs structure, stability, and understanding. She will sacrifice her health to gain these things.
43. Does your character have any secrets? If so, are they holding them back?
She is typically a very open person, but she keeps details to herself. For example, she is very open about her relationship with Christian, but she doesn't delve into the infidelity that somewhat created their relationship.
44. How badly do they want to obtain their life objectives? How do they pursue them?
She craves happiness with everything that she has. She pursues it by maintaining relationships with those she cares about.
45. Is your character pragmatic? Think first? Responsible? All action? A visionary? Passionate? Quixotic?
She is typically very responsible but she has her moments when she gives in. She tends to look at things in the long term sense rather than instant gratification.
46. Is your character tall? Short? What about size? Weight? Posture? How do they feel about their physical body?
Lilly is very petite, and she likes it that way. She carries herself in a hurried but polite manner.
47. Do they want to project an image of a younger, older, more important person? Does they want to be visible or invisible?
What
48. How are your character's gestures? Vigorous? Weak? Controlled? Compulsive? Energetic? Sluggish?
She is very vigorous and compulsive, and she does things the right way rather than the quick way. She would rather spend a long time doing something the first time than have to do it over later.
49. What about voice? Pitch? Strength? Tempo and rhythm of speech? Pronunciation? Accent?
Allow me to direct you tooooo
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50. What are the prevailing facial expressions? Sour? Cheerful? Dominating?
She has a very cheerful and sunny disposition.
Writing Prompt: Getting to Know You
Physical Traits
Gender: Female
Birthdate: May 10th, 1994 (19)
Ethnicity: Western Europe, North America
Height: 5' 7"
Weight: 121
Body: Small frame, healthy, with average muscle tone. Ectomorphic - People with an ectomorphic body type are naturally thin and lightly build with flat chest and poorly muscled limbs. They can usually eat as much as they want without gaining fat. Extreme ectomorphs are commonly described as "skinny" individuals.. Minimal body hair, with color similar to skin tone.
Face: Heart - Face is wide at the temples and hairline, narrowing to a small delicate chin. Light blue eyes that slant down. Small irises, far apart eye spacing, and average-sized eyes. Protruding eyes. Curved eyebrows, high-height eyebrows. High forehead with no features.
Hair: Long, blonde hair. Mildly voluminous, slightly wavy, not particularly frizzy and easily shaped into various other styles with minimal aid from other products.
Skin: Light beige, normal skin. Birthmarks, Scars, Stretch marks, Freckles
Nose: A nose that is straight from the keystone area of the nose between the eyes instead of from the forehead. A narrow bridge, rounded tip, and medium base. Underside of nose is slants up.
Lips: Bottom and top lips are equal in proportion and fullness. Top lip is a Cupid's bow shape.
Teeth: Small teeth.
Dental Probems: None
Hands: Medium hands with long-length, thin-width fingers that have rounded tips. Long palms with many fine, spidery lines. Short fingernails. Hand and fingernail condition: Ragged nails, Abnormal nail arc shadows (moons), Fingernail grooves, Thick nails
Health Issues: Allergies, A Rare Disease (STPD)
Smell: No smell
Voice: Middle pitch. Modal quality - Normal voice (Technical: Normal voice)
Distinctive Voice or Speech Traits: Though her voice is quite average, her voice tends to become much more hushed and breathy when she is excited/angered/any other strong emotion.
Vocabulary: Above average, well educated
Distinctive Features: A scar on her stomach from an attack that she herself waged on another patient, various surgical scars.
Stance: Almost always ramrod straight back, shoulders back, chin up, etc. The perfect little doll.
Walk: Straight-legged almost to the point of a stiff swagger, but the aura she exudes prevents it from being such.
Common Gestures: She often curls her toes up to the point of popping them, and she has something of a nervous tick in her eyes.
Facial Expressions: Blank slate paired with a cold, glazed stare that would make one feel as if she's peering through them to gaze a some object behind them.
Clothes and Shoes: Cordelia's style is best described as "eclectic", with her clothes usually opposite her personality - bright, colourful, and at times, ridiculous or tacky.
Cosmetics: Cordelia rather likes the idea of masking her face with cosmetics, so she wears many types of makeup, most often not in coordination with her outfit for the day.
Sociological
Birthplace: Earth
Current Home: Earth (West Harbor Mental Health Community)
Sexual Orientation: On the Kinsey Sexuality Rating Scale, asexual
Number of Siblings: 5, 5 of whom are still living, and of which the character is middle child.
Relationships within Family: Her family (mother, father, five other siblings [Two older brothers, one older sister, one little sister, one little brother])pities her and worries more about their own monetary and such situations that they see her as burdening them with. It is a rather one-sides relationship, as Cordelia prefers to not recall she has any sort of biological tie to anyone, least of all them.
Character's History: She was a very quiet and non-curious baby and toddler, learned to speak very early in life, but did speak in front of anyone besides herself until she was five. She was an extremely independent child, disliked and therefore shirked anything to do with school. Around age eight, she noticed a demon who had been causing her all sorts of issues since her birth. She had her first psychotic episode at the age of fourteen, which ended up being the reason her family sent her to the first of many mental institutions. She has since had three more episodes, each with self-injuries and injuries of others.
Family Religious Background: Christian
Importance: Somewhat
Father's Occupation: Government, Military lieutenant (retired)
Mother's Occupation: Services, Substitute teacher
Family's Economic Class (while the character was growing up): Middle class
Notable Relatives: N/A
Family Traditions: General and stereotypical: Halloween, Thanksgiving, birthdays, Easter, Christmas, etc.
Character's Education: High school, Non-traditional education
Character's Occupation: None, N/A
Character's Economic Class: Middle class
Character's Religion: Other
Importance: Very, actually
Number of Children: 0, N/A
Relationship: Never married
Personal Life: Cordelia dislikes people - humanity and more - as a whole. Even the thought of becoming close enough to a person to consider them any sort of a life partner is a ridiculous and laughable idea to her.
Normally, Cordelia avoids people and scouts for her demon. She takes joy - her only joy in life, really - in shopping, dressing herself, and makeup.
Special Talent: She's a voracious reader, though she dislikes reading.
Hobbies: Reading, studying the occult, shopping
Friends: N/A
Reputation: An unstable and generally strange, if not mildly creepy, girl. To be avoided.
Keepsakes: N/A
Favorites -
Food: Grilled mushrooms stuffed with cream cheese
Color: Carmine
Outfit: It's ridiculous
Pastime: N/A
Literary Genre: Occult Nonfiction
Items: N/A
Animal: Tarsier
Music: Classical
Plant: Dahlias
Annoyances: Being touched, being spoken to, being asked questions, basically everything bothers her to some degree.
Group Affiliation: N/A (Or House #3 of West Harbor Mental Community
Psychological
Motto:
Leadership: Outcast - Always on the outside, not willing to fit in to the group.
Cooperation in a group setting: Not helpful but not hindering
Style of Thinking:
Synthesist-Pragmatist
S-P's show, perhaps, the greatest tolerance for change. They strive on ambiguity and uncertainty and have developed the coping mechanisms to deal with both. Their thinking style generates tremendous amount of creativity. They like to continuously stir things up and have little regard for stability, endurance and the status quo.
Personality Flaws:
Paranoid (Information)
Schizotypical (Information)
Antisocial (Information)
Avoidant (Information)
Severity: Severe, very disruptive
Mental Health Complaints:
Psychotic (Information)
Somatoform (Information)
Severity: Severe, very disruptive
Fears: That her demon will find her without her knowledge and murder her.
Weaknesses and Shortcomings: Her paranoia and severe anti-socialism, essentially.
Hopes and Dreams: N/A
Desperation: To escape her demon.
At Stake: In actuality, nothing.
Most and Least Self-Serving Actions: Unknown.
Goals: To escape her demon.
Prejudices: Basically, she has varying degrees of immediate dislike for anything and anyone she meets.
Politics: Culturally liberal, Fiscally conservative, Expansionist, Central power, Apolitical
Beliefs: Cordelia does not believe in Heave or Hell, God or Satan - none of that. She believes in the occult, however, most predominantly demons.
Moral Code: She doesn't care much about others, to the point of avoiding them. She does not care that she comes off as cold, rude, or aloof - she just wants to be alone.
Strengths: She is excellent at avoiding and alienating people.
Secrets: She really has never done anything which could be classified as something she would like to be kept secret. She has none.
Secrecy about Personal Information: Open and honest
Emotional Attack:
To hurt this character, one would -
Physically attack her, which would lead her to believe one was her demon, therefore prompting her to violently react - she would attempt to murder her attacker.
Reliability of Memory: Very reliable
Sense of Humor:
Vulgar
Spontaneous
Dark
Intellectual
Reticient
Unique
Passive (provides commentary)
Deviation from Type: She fits the unstable, possibly malicious type of person, I suppose, but she is in fact a rather calm person who rarely does anything at all of serious consequence, even with general provoking.
The Great Escape | | Zombie Week Prompt
Lux had been carefully surveying the community, ignoring the radio commands for all patients to stay in their homes. She really had never been one to break rules before being admitted to the home, although she had noticed herself defying authority more and more recently. But today, once she'd killed her first zombie that had broken into house seven through the kitchen window, the rush of adrenaline she had felt had been incredible- and she wanted more. Stepping over the decapitated head, Lux grabbed her backpack from the kitchen bench and packed it as best she could in under two minutes- a small pocket knife, water bottle, change of clothes, warm jacket, pocket radio, and a headlamp included, not forgetting her handy zombie killing staff- and slipped out the backdoor, shouldering the pack and waiting a moment to get a grip of her surroundings.
Some houses appeared undisturbed, while others looked like they'd just been thrown by a tornado. Several groups of zombies could be heard around the community, but none were in here immeadite sight. A shame, really. She had scaled a large pine tree when the radio went off in her shorts pocket- loudly, like an old World War II air raid siren. Grabbing the device and turning the volume as low as it would go without muting, she checked around her tree. The outburst had gone unnoticed, luckily. She then carefully balanced herself on a branch and raised the radio to her ear. "…Residents of the West Harbor community are advised to evacuate all homes and make their way to the nearest Medical Center… The infected are rapidly approaching… Your homes are no longer safe… Please stay tuned for more information…"
Seriously? People were still in their houses? Zombies were getting in left and right! Shaking her head, Lux looked down at the community. Some of the patients wouldn't be able to survive this on their own. Sighing, she jumped off her branch, landing softly on her feet and looking around. "Alright, kids... Who needs help?"
Catch Me I'm Falling || Prompt
"Admit what you've lost, and live with the cost, at times it does hurt to be healed."
Writing Prompt/AU || Music & Lyrics || These Days
// I was kind of on the fence about doing a ghost AU for Felix. But, when I went to get Aiden's song for the writing prompt, Nico's 'These Days' started playing and it matched Felix too well for me to be able to pass this up. Seeing as how I am idiotically "productive" at 4am, and because I am overly sentimental right now and I miss the little hedgehog, I made an entire playlist to go with this where you can hear his prompt song {X}. Jesus someone please help me.
I have a headcanon for ghost!Fefe where- now that he doesn't have to worry about bothering anyone with his presence- he goes around following people as they go about their day and talks to them even though they'll never hear him. I don't know who he's talking to in this, so I'll leave that up to your imagination.
Don't get mad at me if this gives you feels. Y'all asked for it. *cough* BIA *cough*