“Hey Yeonie. Sit down with me.”
Two wine glasses. He fills one and in breathe he drinks it before refilling it and drinking it again. Hands pressed against his own eyes. Cold. Cooling his tepid face. He sat up straight, breathing. In and out. In and out.
Staring out at Jiyeon, he could feel his stomach tying knots. It was as if weeds and brambles at infested his mind. A thousand different things, all at once and the alcohol didn’t do much to help the situation. He took another sip, glancing momentarily into Jiyeon’s silver eyes before looking back down at his cup. There was still a yearning there. To make him smile. To wrap his arms around him. To share heat, in that moment as the blood rushed to his extremities, to his hands to his feet. Blushing his cheeks and making his heart race.
It wasn’t meant to be forever. He tells himself that. He tells himself that as he remembers Jiyeon’s smile. It was like finding a wildflower, blooming in the crags of some forgotten rocky shore. He loved it. He couldn’t deny that. And it wouldn’t hide it. His heart raced now as it did that first time. But he hadn’t seen the flower bloom in a while and the gardener often blames himself before the bud.
“We--,” a pause. He stopped mid sentence, breathing deep. “We need to talk.”