5 Spot - High school Mentality
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5 Spot - High school Mentality
I hate those type of girls who will comment on your pics or reply to your story like ‘you look so pretty mashallah 😍’ but then also chat shit and gossip about you behind your back. If you don’t like me (for no good reason) then idc but just leave me alone, I hate all that two-faced business. Some people will pree you and give fake compliments but then go hate on you with their little friends after, it’s so weird lmao. And they think you don’t know the truth but trus me girl, I knowww
I’m back in high school again.
Tumblr has always been good at making me highlight my inadequacies. From the beautiful women all over my dash that still make me nervous and have such an unobtainable aura around them, to wanting to chime in on social justice conversations but feeling like my thoughts will be ignored and overlooked, to people saying they aren’t happy with themselves and being able to painfully relate, to reluctantly posting up pictures or my poetry for fear os being judged and teased or just ignored, to feeling shy and subhuman around all the cool, popular kids.
Part of me wants to just be a poetry blog, follow other poetry blogs and stay in my lane. Not try to dialogue with or make connections with anyone anymore, just disappear into the shadows, hold up the wall.
Some days we have a manager at the restaurant where I work. They used to have one of the other servers manage on the actual manager’s days off bc well duh there should always be a manager on duty.
They don’t let her fill in as manager anymore. Work is slower and there are not enough hours and those of us with seniority are being skimped on our hours so I suggested having this server manage again on days that the actual manager is off. That way, it would free up some shifts so all the servers have are receiving a fair amount of hours.
The bosses say no because they don’t want to pay her the $10/hour to manage. They don’t want to spend that money.
Meanwhile, they give the 18 year old cook a RAISE and significantly MORE hours, telling him how much they appreciate his hard work while the other senior server and I barely work 20 hours a week and haven’t gotten a raise in months.
Now, the cook is my little brother. I’m the reason they hired him, because they wanted someone who would work as hard as me. They also almost hired my sister at one point as a server, but they changed their minds because she wasn’t 21 yet, and we serve alcohol.
I work much harder than what I get paid to do, bc I was raised to always try my best and to work hard for what I earn. But my bosses have a prejudice against the servers. They call us ‘the girls’ and when one person doesn’t do her job, it’s everyone’s fault and we all get yelled at.
After almost three years of overachieving I still make only $4 an hour. My brother the cook started at $8 something an hour and now makes $12.
So the bosses couldn’t “afford” to pay the senior server $10 an hour for a day and a half a week but they could raise the cook’s pay rate to $12 an hour and give him 20 more hours a week
one thing that absolutely infuriates me is when somebody judges you based on someone else's opinion instead of basing it on their own interactions with you
this one's for the bullies
Dear people who have nothing better to do than bully those you do not know/THINK you know but you really don't, you really aren't as cool as you think you are. There's always two sides to a story. You should probably do your research before you start to gossip/post ridiculous memes thinking they'll phase people. Or else you will just look like you've been stuck in high school all these years.
Moral of the story? Get your facts straight before you assume .
mikela talks so much shit about you better you know
Well, if I am what she is choosing to spend her energy on, I guess I should be flattered.