#high sensitive

[taifunu]

Awakening by Jaap Berghoef Via Flickr: The meager morning sun awakens the soul of winter

[taifunu]

Sprinkled with crystal pearls by Jaap Berghoef Via Flickr: Crystal pearls of the cold worlds Keep nature in their grasp, Thousands of icy cold spheres Adorn the plants with their brilliance.

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Kissed by the sun by Jaap Berghoef Via Flickr:

[bugie78]

Shy Confession about myself

So my dad apparently thinks I don't care about anyone. I don't know why but I strongly fine that offensive. 

Ok let me clear this for everyone out there, 

I might not let many people hug me

I might not help out as much as I would actually want too. 

I might not tell people I love them or I like them or I care for them

I might never say anything sweet or anything really nice to anyone in my family or to any of the people I personally know. 

But...

the reason I am like this is because

I'm simply afraid. Afraid of how people will look at me how they will treat me everything... I am simply afraid of the human species. And yes my parents think I'm making this stuff up. They think I'm using this as a "excuse to not do work." Cause to them everything is about work. 

But in reality I am afraid of humans...

when ever I go to NYC or a big city at all I turn to look at all the humans, I feel like a person will shoot me any time. 

When I need to fine a partner for a project I am to shy to go to anyone cause honestly the kids in my class scare me. They are frighting really no joke... 

I get scared that any human will beat me up where ever I go, and that I get scared asking people for help afraid that they will look down upon me. And the list goes on and on... 

And honestly this is likely Social Anxiety, which I do have (was diagnose by a doctor in 4th grade) and honestly I try my hardest not to run away but I end up doing so when it gets really bad to the point of me ripping my own hair out. 

And you know why it gets bad? 

Because I am a sensitive person. If I feel or pick up the sad tone or angry tone in the air I almost instantly become stress. I guess you can say that's why I end up doing things(too personal not going to mention what it is I'm talking about) because of the angry tone my dad carries all the time and my mom sad tone too. And the competitive voice of my brother is also stressful. And to make matters worse, my whole family literally thinks I am making this stuff up.But I guess you can say that's probally why I'm so good with animals, because I feel like I can actually connect with them because quite frankly animals are senstive beings too. 

And yes I'm sure I am not the only one with high sensitves there are many more out there too. And if any of them are reading this, then hope you understand what I'm saying. 

So what I been wanting to say is

Even if I act the way I do, I secretly care for my friends and my mom and my extended family. (not really my dad and my brother because honestly those two are the main cause for my stress) I also will stand up for people regardless of age, race, gender, sexuality(wow I actually wrote it I'm improving or if I hate that person or not. I care about people even though I am afraid of them. Why? I wonder that myself. 

so if you took the time for reading this thanks for doing so. And hope you understand. 

[concerningdwarves]

For a long time now I've been feeling disconnected to the world. As a high sensitive person I feel like I've adjusted and changed myself so much, that a am just a shell of who I was. I always, always change and it tears me up I feel dead, as if the real me has left and in place is just one big mask. I don't even know if 'me' still exists. What do I like? What is my personality? It's all gone It scares me. I hope I can re-find myself and get grounded again. It will get better eventually, I just have to work on it and I probably need some help with it

[lovelifefacelimits]

A nice documentary with English subtitles. It's about young kids and how they look against the world and how we lost that way of looking when we grow older.

[kleinkraemerin]

In Stellenanzeigen wird auch gerne nach autonom denkenden, selbständigen Mitarbeitern gesucht. Jedoch ist auch dies oft eine Mogelpackung. Der neue Mitarbeiter soll zwar selbständig denken aber nur innerhalb bestimmter deutlich abgesteckter Grenzen. Faktisch bedeutet selbständig sein in vielen Arbeitsumgebungen: der Angestellte soll selbständig einschätzen, was die Vorgesetzten gerne hätten und dies selbständig, ohne lästige Zwischenfragen, ausführen.  Auf keinen Fall jedoch sollen bestehende Strukturen kritisch hinterfragt werden. Und genau das ist doch die Lieblingsbeschäftigung autonomer Geister. 

[kleinkraemerin]

i live in my own world. that´s ok, they know me there!

edgar wallace