#hight sensitivity

[fibey234]

The magic in the little things

I felt an emotional flood today.. It was supposed to be a little comic to vent my emotions, but it finally came to life in my After Effects software.....

Too much toxic content on social media… fear, anxieties, traumas that are still trying to heal… all together made me feel overwhelmed, that I had to convey art.

As I said, Minister of Spring expresses the anticipation of better days, like the warm spring after cold winter.

[fibey234]

🎀 High sensitivity 🎀

I've never written about it, but now I think it's time to talk about it.

I researched a lot about it, and I still continue to learn about this phenomenon from the field and it helps me get to know myself more closely.

Until about a year ago, I just didn't stop beating myself up.. hurting myself, being angry with myself, why am I so sensitive?! Why am I different from everyone, why am I the only one among all the other members of the house who takes things to heart, why is everything with me of such high importance?! What is different about me from everyone else, and why do I react to seemingly light situations - in such an extreme and emotional way?!

Sounds and smells have significant power over my emotional system, and have a far-reaching influence.

I researched more and more, and in two words I understood: high sensitivity. that's it.

Actually, it has a more accurate name… but I want to say briefly that it is a gift.

What is this expressed in?

It is to see the world differently, in detail. I have a sharp eye for the smallest details, and a focus on the atmosphere that everything in the field makes me feel…

I have a very strong intuition, gut feelings that cannot be explained. Most of the time they are right.. even without my wanting to..

Every little thing can make me cry, I'm sensitive to sounds, tastes and smells at a high level. If it's about songs and music - it's another world… it might overwhelm me. And I can even see colors through songs and music. I can see landscapes, visual images and moving films with characters right through my imagination.

Every little thing almost overwhelms me. Especially compliments that don't come out of a desire to actually compliment… If it's something exciting that happens to me, I get overly excited. If there is something that causes a pinch, the tears burst out of me.

Even when I see people making dreams come true, it touches me. I take it hard… I ask myself when it will be my turn to fulfill mine…

The nature outside is spectacular in its beauty, and I see every flower and plant that stands in my way and smile to myself… Loves to smell flowers of almost any kind, touch, feel… Look at small insects in nature and study them… I even have research charts that I made myself and I am learning about all kinds of flowers and different types of insects in nature.

I'm hyperstimulated to be in an environment full of people, I'm too sensitive to it. It's better for me to be with myself alone and breathe nature than to be with people for a long time.. I realized that this is NOT a negative thing.

After certain events, or unforgettable trips and experiences, or after exhausting projects at work, studies, etc. - I have to take time to absorb and absorb what I went through.. Days, nights, months… I need to digest, write, document, do anything that will help me digest the experience I went through. Give it time to heal, and then go back to normal. (I can't do without it, otherwise I have an emotional outburst while I return to my routine with no break time between experiences. An experience is even a normal work day with friends for example…)

My inner world is very magical and sensitive, every little word from someone can drop me into the abyss, or lift me up.

It's hard for me to meet new people, because I always think about the moment when we break up and how hard it will be to say goodbye to this person… and if it happens that I still get attached to a certain person, I get really emotionally attached to him/her/they and discover how much magic this person has. (My biggest fear is that this relationship will end someday)

I'm also a type of overthinking. Tends to think about every smallest thing and grind it thousands of times and from all directions, sometimes it even prevents me from falling asleep at night and also enters my dream because it keeps me busy.

I have a wide and great empathy towards people. I contain them more than a normal person, and they are a significant part of me. I can identify with them completely as much as I can understand them.

My heart wants to contain so much good, but because it tries to contain so much love - it fills up quickly and therefore I must rest and ventilate often, be with myself and breathe the peace.

And in short - being sensitive - is a blessing. This is a wonderful and magical supreme gift!

Never be angry with yourself for being too sensitive.

No one in the universe can love you more than yourself. you guys are great.

And you are not to blame for the fact that people do not understand your inner world, you are the ones who have been blessed with a higher sensitivity than usual, the ability to give pure love to everyone and to accommodate.

Be proud of yourself for being sensitive and loyal.✨💖👑

[fibey234]

A HEART

that gave, and loved, and gave, and loved, and gave, and loved, and gave again...

A lot of magic, a lot of investment on a certain person..

And then comes the crushing moment.💔

This always happens to me...

I promised myself to renew my trust in people.

Thanks to her I learned to trust them back.

I gave her sisterly love, so pure and supreme...

Being sensitive is sometimes so magical.. And sometimes so dangerous for me...

Sleepless nights and days of stomachaches..

My mind couldn't handle it this time, I'm afraid of losing my sanity from too many thoughts.

Only one thing I am sure of, my love is real.

Only... not everyone understands it the way I do.