#higuu.rambles

[le-higuu]

Waiting for the next drop of shapes and pines lore like

I'm so obsessed with those goofy guys. I want to squeeze tad like a stress ball

[le-higuu]

Guys I'm unwellm I'm. Guys. Guys

H.S. by Tom Cardy is taking over my brain I don't. In an autistic way. In a very definitely neurodivergent manner. I'm just...

OH MY GOD I LOVE THE SONG SO MUCH BUT I ALSO LOVE THE ART SO MUCH

AND ITS MESHED INTO THE PERFECT STORM FOR MY AWFUL BRAIN TO LATCH ONTO. I CANT FOCUS ON MY HOMEWORK IVE JUST BEEN REWATCHING THE VIDEO CONTINUOUSLY

Fifteen times. Two days. I take a break to do something else and I think about it again and have to look it up again I'm just AUUUUGHHH

I JUST. UM

I'm imploding actually I just

IM DYING ACTUALLY . IDK IT FEELS LIKE IM DYING

PLUTOOOO IM YOUR BIGGEST FAN

HES SO. DESIGNED.

AAAAUUUUUGH

[le-higuu]

Keep getting distracted from homework.... I'm just so hungry all the time..........

Mmmm chicken piccata....... 🤤

AWWWWWW I WANT IT SO BAAAAAD

[le-higuu]

Executive dysfunction is... Weird.

The only way I can get myself to do something is to trick myself into doing it. And to trick myself into it I need to be unaware that I'm doing something.

So sometimes I'll blink and just.... Be in another room, doing something. But I don't remember when I decided to do the thing.

And I have half a second of "hey, wait, I don't want to do this, actually" but then it's too much effort to change tracks again, so I'm stuck doing whatever it is until I finish the task.

Fun.

[le-higuu]

Just downed three pulled pork sandwiches in ten minutes. Hands are spotless of sauce. I am the pulled pork champion

[le-higuu]

I crack open an 11 ounce can of trader Joe's Mandarin oranges, only slightly, and drink all the juice through the little hole.

I salute you, can in hand.

"Tonight we eat like kings," I say, as I place the can between us and tear the rest of the lid off, sticking in two forks.

[le-higuu]

Just had a dream where clowns and humans were two different species and they were trying to integrate into the same society, and part of that integration was this museum with only artwork of clowns. Apparently it was to show that clowns were alright and really not deserving of racism or species-ism or whatever? Anyways in all the paintings and stuff in this museum, someone had also used glow-in-the-dark paint to do something, they'd painted designs all over the clowns, and I think it was gonna turn into a big puzzle or something like the Da Vinci Code but then I woke up so I didn't get to see what would happen :(

[le-higuu]

Wow that productivity crash where you start off really excited and good at doing stuff and then slowly nosedive into the Bermuda Triangle to never be seen again really hit me hard.