#hip chronicles

[malloryrunsthis]

Post Surgery Update

Hello! Reporting from five days after hip surgery from my new-normal place: the guest bedroom. 

It’s only been a few days but I am happy to say that at this point, I am doing pretty well. I am not in pain which is shocking. Like, I have not taken any painkillers since Saturday night and I was basically only doing that because everyone kept saying the pain would come. So far, it hasn’t but I know better than to say it will be pain free all the time.

That is not to say that I am taking nothing. I have been prescribed meloxicam for inflammation and asprin to help prevent blood clots--both are pretty standard.

The downside at this point is just the lack of mobility. I am 30% weight bearing on my right leg for two weeks so I crutch around everywhere. The cats are very confused by the new, slower me. I also can’t sit in a chair or bend my hip 90 degrees or less so I lay around a lot which has caused my back and glutes to ache. Do you know how sad it is when you can’t even roll on your side while sleeping? VERY.

I go in for a post-op appointment tomorrow where I’ll find out a little bit more about what actually went down during surgery and any additional guidelines for recovery. Then I have my first PT session on Monday I really don’t know what they’ll have me do, to be honest. But I am definitely looking forward to doing SOMETHING. I’m going a little stir crazy right now.

I know I have a long road ahead of me but for the first time in months, I’m optimistic about my chances for recovery.

[malloryrunsthis]

The Week Of

My hip surgery is on Friday and I still can’t decide if I’m making the right choice or doing something crazy. 

On the one hand. this has been an issue since...March of last year? While the sharp groin pain has gone away, I still have pain in the hip joint and it seems to be spreading to new areas (hello to my shoulder and neck).

On the other hand. the pain isn’t all that bad. Yes, it’s chronic but it’s dull and sometimes (if I am on my feet and puttering around the house) I don’t feel anything at all. 

There are days when I know this is needed. Then there are days when I worry that I am doing something drastic because I am impatient and a perfectionist and want my life back.

I just hope it helps. It’s a long recovery: it’ll be at least three months before I can resume “normal’ physical activity but I’ve heard that it really takes a year to get back on track. So I guess...watch this space? 

[thesassyllamass]

Heyoooo so. I’ve put on a good amount of weight after my hip surgery, due to being unable to be active or do fucking ANYTHING with my (still) broken hips.

But ya know what? I’m finally starting to be okay with it. My weight is higher than it had been in yearrrssss (like, since I was 30 weeks pregnant). And I’m dealing with it. Mostly because I’m so god damn tired of the internal battles I have with myself about my body. At the end of the day, I do my best 🤷🏼‍♀️

So yeah. This is basically a random “I don’t love my body but I’m beginning to tolerate it more right now,” post.

[thesassyllamass]

I feel so fucking defeated.

I had a full on breakdown on the way home from my doctors appointment.

I’m so stressed knowing that the major hip surgery I need could put me out of work for (at a minimum), three months. I have a child to care for. A job. Bills to pay.

Not to mention, emotionally? It’s a lot. I’m a mess today.

[thesassyllamass]

Chronic pain is so much fun. I was so physically exhausted from being in so much pain, I passed out cold for two hours earlier. Now, it's 10pm, I have to be up at 5am, and sleep is nowhere in sight. I cannot get comfortable. I'm so nauseated from the pain. Yet I'm so damn exhausted.

[thesassyllamass]

I fell on my hip a couple days ago and I am having some pretty intense shooting pain in the top of my hip bone and in my socket.

I *know* I need to make an appointment because it’s becoming unbearable but I am SO sick of needles in my hips and X-rays.. why didn’t the surgery just do what it was supposed to 😭

[thesassyllamass]

standing outside my office talking to two coworkers, i went to go take a step. when i did, i heard an incredibly loud crack, and as i stepped down, all i felt was agonizing, shooting, tremendous pain. my hip gave out and i collapsed. i can’t bare weight on my left hip without an a shooting, sharp pain down my hip. and this is my LEFT hip. not the one i just had surgery on.

the pain i feel sometimes is one thing, but this was the type of pain that just puts you into shock. and i have a pretty high pain tolerance. it’s been about three hours, and i’m still struggling to put weight onto my left leg.

looks like i’ll be making an emergency appointment tomorrow.

[thesassyllamass]

i tripped and fell on my hip earlier today.

and i am now in utter agony. i am shaking because i am in so much pain.

and the cortisone shots were helping so much, too.