#hip feels

[wonuella]

Me after watching all the teasers for He Is Psychometric:

I KINDA STILL CANNOT BlaME SUNG-MO?? AHN BETTER NOT FREAKING DIE AND I HONESTLY FEEL LIKE JUMPING OUT OF THE WINDOW RIGHT NOW

[wonuella]

Sung-Mo, a Diamond in the Rough

A/N: I believe this might be the last long post related to my beloved Sung-Mo, I will ever write. This is NOT a theory, this are just some pointers of things I’ve come to realize over the course of these 12 episodes. This by NO means portraits what are the actual intentions of the writers of the show. ALSO, I have to say I love the support I get on my little theories and that I always check the tags of those who reblog it and sometimes it’s filled with compliments and I cry a bit in silence.

♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥

Sung-Mo is one of the deepest and, in my humble opinion, the most well written character in the whole show. Even though he is not the main character, his story and actions just makes him a character that draws you in.

Of all things and emotions that drives his characters, guilt, plays a big big role. He obviously loves Ahn, and cares deeply for him. Ahn is with no doubt the closest person to Sung-Mo. But Sung-Mo feels this responsibility towards the main characters of the series mostly because he feels guilty.

“I was never alone back then”

In rough words, that is what Sung-Mo tells the Priest, when he is debating what he should do next. And for me this is one of the saddest things Sung-Mo has ever said. Because he acknowledges that there were people willing to help him, but maybe out of fear, he didn’t reach out.

He recalls not Jae-In or Ahn, but their parents. He remembers how they were willing to help him, even though they don’t know him very well. Sung-Mo grew up feeding that guilt. Blaming himself, thinking that if he had talked to any of the two men that offered help to him in moments of need, then the kids wouldn’t have such harsh futures.

Sung-Mo jumped out of that window holding Ahn tight to his body, because he knew that if he had talked with his father, a police-officer, then maybe the building wouldn’t be on flames, and Ahn parents wouldn’t have died. Sung-Mo risked his life because he already must have felt that he had responsibility over Ahn’s life.

When he and Ahn had the news of Jae-In’s father being arrested Sung-Mo already knew that the police were wrong and he already knew the police was not doing its job properly since he had already warned Jisoo’s father about the ‘suspicious man’.

Sung-Mo feels responsible for everyone around him because he believes that if he had asked for help then the fire would have never happened, his father would have probably been arrested, his mother would have been besides him, and they could have lived an easier life.

Out of everything Sung-Mo ‘learned’ to feel, guilt is probably one of the first things he must have started feeling. Guilt for never asking for help, guilt for not being able to help capture the culprit, guilt for leaving Ahn alone at the orphanage, guilt for hiding from Jisoo all the things he knew about her father.

But I also believe that if it wasn’t for that guilt, Sung-Mo wouldn’t open up to any of these characters. Ahn brings out brotherly love out in Sung-Mo making him playful and truly himself, Jae-In makes him laugh for silly things, Jisoo brings out a romantic love, something that he must be terrified of. I will address his situation with Jisoo later on.

Guilt had to be the first feeling Sung-Mo was able to feel towards these characters, and all the other feelings were being developed over time, because he also must have felt trust. I believe that even though guilt is an awful thing to carry, it made him believe that he wasn’t like his father.

Because of guilt Sung-Mo was able to build trust, he was able to open up. He was able to also understand anger, and that the consequences of nurturing this feeling could bring pain.

Which brings me to point out a few things about Sung-Mo’s relationship with the characters. Firstly, with Ahn he is carefree. He laughs when Ahn sings to songs, he worries for his safety, he opens up about his past wounds, he is so ready to let everything about him to pour out and share everything with Ahn. With Jae-In and her aunt, he also worries, he let’s his guard down and makes jokes, he laughs out loud.

Now with Jisoo, he is careful. Maybe because he also fears the feelings he has for her. Not knowing if he will come out as obsessive, or loving. Sung-Mo obviously knows how a regular relationship is supposed to look like, but he also has this deep scar about always being compared to his father, and not really knowing what would be the tipping point for him.

Imagine a teen Sung-Mo starting to have this strange feeling about this girl that speaks her mind with no care in the world, and being so terrified of being compared to his father, he decides to shut her down completely. Unaware of the pain he might be causing her. 

Sung-Mo actually might end up feeling too much, but all these feelings must be accompanied with fear, and he doesn’t know how to properly express them, and maybe that’s why when he starts to feel more than he considers “the usual” he decides to shut people down. Afraid of what he can do, what he can become.

In my opinion Sung-Mo alone could never discover everything about himself, he needs all these characters around him to help him see that he can indeed, feel, and feel good things.

As we are walking towards the end of the show I wanted to write that I love Sung-Mo. I believe that he must be one of the most relatable characters in the show, for he is always so conflicted with what is right, what is expected from him and what he wants. So to my dear Sung-Mo, I hope you get your girl, I hope you get the happy ending you deserve.

♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥-♥

♥ That’s all. I hope this made sense, because it’s all over the place. Please share your favorite Sung-Mo moments until now. Mine is when he and Ahn were mistaken by a couple, when he laughed at Ahn singing in the car, and the shower scenes, obviously.

♥ Let’s keep HIP Talk going on. Feel free to tag me in anything and to contact me! I am always up for some HIP feels. My other posts related to HIP can be found here [x,x] ♥

♥ RAFA IS PART OF THE SUNG-MO PROTECTION SQUAD.♥

[wonuella]

Sorry but I am still part of Sung-Mo defense squad *sad yeehaw*

[wonuella]

I'm super late to post my thoughts on HIP finale and such I'm SO SORRY, I had people coming over, and went to watch Avengers... I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN PLEASE DONT HATE ME