a bloodied hand rises to her cheek , a bittersweet smile on his face : red streaks on her pale skin as his thumb strokes circles onto her . a pathetic attempt to console her as her hands try desperately to stop the blood pouring from his chest [ turns out things weren’t as good with the chinese as chibs had thought ] —— part of him knows he deserves this / he had killed lin in cold blood , after all / but deeper down , he’s SCARED [ he didn’t want to die ] . vaguely , he can hear his president barking orders in the background , yelling at someone to call an ambulance , but they all know it’s a futile effort .
he can’t quite make out the words spilling from erica’s lips , too muffled by her sobs , or maybe his ears are ringing too much [ . . . ] body feels FUZZY now & he’s so tired , but doesn’t dare close his eyes , just in case he’ll never open them again [ he knows he won’t ] . it’s almost poetic that hers is the last face he’ll ever see : the same face that had SAVED him before , the same one he wanted to wake up beside everyday of his life , the same one that had kept him alive all these years .
but all good things must come to an end , & maybe now this is her chance to start over . a shame , that he has to die so she can take their kids , get them far away from this life / but it was worth it , wasn’t it ? he’d do anything to save them , even if it meant dying in his wife’s arms , surrounded by men that he considered his brothers [ though , he’s not even sure of that anymore : would it be that surprising if they had orchestrated this to get rid of a rat ? ] . only now does the smile fall , as a cough racks through his body / blood spills past his lips , down his chin & he can’t stay awake anymore . uses the last of his strength to grip onto her cheek just a little tighter , force her to look him in the eye one last time / & finally her words make sense to him : ❛ 𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨𝐨 . ❜
