#hiverants

[bathiveroleplays]

Because I have a lot of thoughts…

Dorsia Boyfriends x Falsettos Songs: I Never Wanted to Love You

I never wanted to love you

I only wanted to love and not be blamed

Let me go, you should know

I'm not ashamed

To have loved you

This is Paul. Paul is not ashamed of his affections for Patrick. He used to care about what people would think of them together but that got exhausting fast so he stopped because why should he be sorry for who he loves?

I loved you more than I meant to

In my profession, one's love stays unexpressed

Here we stand, take my hand

God, I'm distressed

How I love you

This part is Patrick. He did not mean to fall in love with Paul. He really didn’t! He just liked the man’s style and looks and personality and how everyone liked him and gravitated toward him and he wanted that! So he paid closer attention to him and one thing led to another… It’s upsetting for Patrick but it happened.

I never wanted to love you

I never wanted, 'till death do we two part.'

Condescend, stay my friend

How do I start

Not to love you?

I'm everything he wanted

It's time I put it all together

Paul didn’t see himself as the marrying type. Never really has but Patrick is the only man he can see spending his life with.

Yes, Patrick can be a pain. Patrick is complicated, he can be harsh and mean on purpose or on accident. Patrick is difficult to love sometimes but he still does.

He just needs to stop being so anxious about what others think (coworkers, family, etc.) and start living for himself.

I never wanted to love you

I only wanted to see my face in yours

Don't misunderstand, I'm in demand!

And anyhow, we're through!

I never wanted

I wanted-

I never, never, never, never

Never, never wanted to love you!

Patrick’s affection for Paul started because he wanted to be him and his obsession developed affection.

Loving a man could ruin his life with his family and his reputation at work. He didn’t mean for this to happen but he does love Paul.

He wants to call things off because he’s terrified of what will happen if they continue but he still wants to be with Paul.

“Don’t misunderstand, I’m in demand!” Is Patrick’s way of telling, not Paul, but himself that he doesn’t need him. Spoilers: It doesn’t work.

He wants that love and attention and care but he doesn’t want the consequences.

[battyhive]

I’m About to Be Annoying About This Film

It has been decided! I’m gonna get to work on some concept stuff for the characters and what-not for How Awful About Allan.

Like I said, I can’t let a good Anthony Perkins character go to waste so imma snag Alan and make a story out of it. Comics would be great so I’ll try my hand at that.

Basically the film felt rushed to me so I’m gonna take my time with the characters and such and develop them out more. Extend some scenes so we can really get a feel for the emotions and gravity of it

Since it was a thriller/horror picture, I’m certainly going to lean into the horror aspect of Alan hearing things and the blurry shapes.

This is gonna focus more on the characters issues and mental health and how they react to the situations.

It won’t be an exact retelling of the story as I may change some things and give it more time for the characters to develop and form relationships with each other in ways that won’t be so rushed.

I’ll pan this out more as I make some concept works for it before starting the comics but stay tuned! I’m gonna be talking about this a lot.

Feel free to send asks and questions and whatnot as I’d love to hash this out a bit more too.

[bathiveroleplays]

I watched How Awful About Allan. It’s an Anthony Perkins movie about a guy who comes home from the mental hospital and is still having some issues and his sister is NOT HELPING LOL and it is unfortunate how little content there is for it. No fanfics, no fanart, NOTHING! It was a fine film and NOTHING!

Like I thought it was lovely and thought for sure there would be SOMETHING but no! Like I can let a good Anthony Perkins character go to waste

I guess I’ll make MY OWN THINGS FOR IT THEN