A commission I got, written by @skeletonh0e ! Tysm for writing this for me! 10/10 would commission you again :>
Cross x Juli
Love letter
My Dear Juli,
Alright, all I will ask of you is that you read this to the end. Even if you laugh or think this is dumb (please don't think this dumb wait no ignore this I'm outta paper)…just please read until the end. It's something I need you to know, something I need you to understand.
I spent way too long trying to figure out what to say and how to say, spent even longer trying to figure out the “right” way to say it. I almost went to Epic or Ink for help, before I realized what a horrible idea THAT was. Even now I have no idea if I ... .actually did a good or even just a decent enough job. Honestly, I feel like a coward for not doing this in person (but trust me, I'm sparing you the sight of seeing me all tongue tied).
But when all is said and done, I would be even more of a coward if I didn't try at all, right?
So, I'll just put it out there loud and clear. This is something that I need you to know first and foremost, I don't want there to be any doubt in your mind about it.
I love you.
Like, it's not a joke. I love you. I really really love you. I truly deeply love you. It's not even an exaggeration, the furthest thing from an exaggeration. This is nothing less than the truth. I went through fifty sheets of paper (and even a few pens) trying to tell you how much I love you and really there are so many ways, the strange thing about language is we can say the same thing over and over with the same meaning but feel differently about it just because of HOW we word it. And the strangest thing is they all work for you,
How could I pick one phrase when they all perfectly describe the feeling I get? How can I pick one when I want this letter to be perfect for you?
You make my heart soar, you give me butterflies, I feel young and free around you, I wake up wanting to see your face, you make me happy, you make me wanna be better, you make me feel complete, I would fight a thousand battles for you- and those are just the ones in english! I'm serious. Anytime I looked for examples on this? They all were perfect for how I feel about you, it was so frustrating at first. Everything had already been said by someone better in a better way and anything I would come up with paled in comparison. Makes me wish I had been born a poet rather than a soldier or at least someone more creative that could combine it all to demonstrate how I feel about you.
Maybe putting it all into words is truly an impossible task, but like I said- I would truly be a coward if I didn't at least try, a thousand failed attempts couldn't stop me and neither could a thousand more.
And every piece of writing advice I got was very straightforward, always the same, guess it's time I started listening to it. “Speak from the Heart,” they all said.
Well, this is me pouring my own heart and soul into this letter now, even as you're reading this I'm probably an anxious mess hoping you'll read it then possibly even remotely feel the same way or at least decide to give me a shot. I know I don't really deserve you, but I want to deserve you….you know?
I wasn't kidding when I said you make me want to be better, someone like you deserves someone great. A guy that can give you anything you want then more,I want to be that guy for you, I'm telling you I can be that guy for you, if you'll let me? Is that too desperate? Probably huh….
Well, thinking on it ... .given how many sheets of paper I've been through guess I am desperate. I know this isn't a perfect letter or even a perfect confession, it's just me. I really tried everything, something cutesy, something dramatic, something silly, I almost opened this with a pun- can you imagine? I'm not saying this so you can laugh at me (frankly I'm worried you already are), just to show that I do mean this. It's what I want to bring to you every day of your life, I want you to know there is someone doing everything to make you happy even if they don't know how to do it.
You're worth that. I'll always remind you that you're worth that.
I think I already called you a princess before, did you hear that? If you did…well, do you remember that? It really just slipped out and I was so embarrassed, praying you didn't think I was “cringe” or anything. To this day I don't know if you heard then pretended not to or if you genuinely missed it. Either way, there's no missing it now though, if there's anyone that deserves to be treated like royalty, it's you. There's such a radiant air about you, even when you're just being yourself or goofing off.
And as cheesy as it may sound, I'd be happy to serve you in any way I can. Even if it's not as your boyfriend,
I obviously can't make you do anything, but genuinely? If you will have me? It would make me the happiest skeleton in all of the multiverse, no rush, but I'm eagerly waiting for your reply (the suspense is killing me harder than even my worst battle wounds).
. Whatever you choose, I want it to be what you want. And even if I'm not what you want, I can only hope one day I can be. Despite everything in this letter, don't let it pressure you or anything.
Signed with all my Love, Cross
YURI I LOVE THIS SO MUCH I WILL TREASURE THIS FOREVER
Gift for @skeletonh0e with a ref sheet of their sona, Yuri!
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