#holdenthinksaboutthings

[holdencaulfieldthinksyoureaphony]

ok so TONIGHT’s thought…

a non-native English speaker who REALLY needs a tissue but is using so much mental capacity focusing on NOT sneezing that they can’t come up with the word. And maybe the person they’re asking for one is playing just a liiittle bit dumb because they’re kind of enjoying watching this play out…

“do you haa-ahve— um— un mouchoir?”

“what?”

“uh— you know— heh— the p-p-pAah— paper— that you use to…” *gestures wildly at face with hand*

“the paper?”

“to sn— snehHHH”

“ohhh, a tissue? I think so, sorry, hold on…”

“tryy—huh—trying”

"here... better take the box..."

"huuuh- uh- SHOOO...huh, snf... thanks"

"salud!"

[holdencaulfieldthinksyoureaphony]

there’s a coffee shop near me that has a seasonal tea that sounds SO good (it’s basically fresh pressed ginger juice with honey and lemon), and I want to try it so bad but they had to name it the Sniffle Soother and actually I don’t think I could say those words out loud in public if my life depended on it.

[holdencaulfieldthinksyoureaphony]

Ok hear me out this might be a reach but it’s where my mind is at right now and it seems like a lot of you are right there with me. You know how in the episode 4 opening scene there’s a montage of hookups between like 2014-2016? And we mostly see I/lya in his usual uniform of workout tanks/ tees and/ or shirtless? But then we have them here in Montreal and he’s wearing this EXTREMELY cozy grey adidas top. It’s definitely because he’s sick here I’m just saying. You know he’s been pulling up those cuffs to scrub at his nose and pulling up the collar to sneeze into and ugh… it’s just a really cozy top and the fact that it’s kind of out of character makes you think about THINGS.

[holdencaulfieldthinksyoureaphony]

”I love you”

“… I’m leaking out of every orifice on my face right now”

“I know”

[holdencaulfieldthinksyoureaphony]

Ok so here's what I'm thinking about tonight.

The intimacy and vulnerability of one partner telling the other exactly how they want their nose tended to. Hesitantly at first, and then with more detail as they realize that their partner isn't bothered and might actually be kinda into it?

"Ihht's so itchy... could you like... pinch it?"

"yeah just like that... maybe wrap the tissue around your knuckle and put some prehh- ehh -shit sorry, some pressure under the tip?"

"gahh that feels good. Really scrub it, ok? Seriously, you're helping so muhhh- ugh, so much. Fuck I really gotta sneeze though, is that ok? It's nooot feeling like it's guhhh- ooh, sorry. Not feeling like it's gonna be pretty..."

[holdencaulfieldthinksyoureaphony]

So I was reading a vanilla post today about how she is sound-sensitive so her partner warns her by saying “loud noise!” before he turns on appliances like the blender and I JUST THOUGHT how cute and considerate (and actually like really hot) it would be for someone with a loud sneeze to do that for their sensory- sensitive partner.

[holdencaulfieldthinksyoureaphony]

I’ve been SO here for all the glasses love on snzblr lately, so may I present my current favorite thought: glasses as an indicator of a bad allergy day.

“ragweed bad today?”

“horrible… how can you tell?”

“well, you’ve sneezed about 10 times in the last hour… but also you’re wearing your glasses and I know it always makes your eyes too itchy for contacts…How can I help?”

[holdencaulfieldthinksyoureaphony]

having some THOUGHTS about artists. Like, think about this: a potter, with a cold or having a terrible allergy day or, oof, both (you know, choose your own adventure), who can’t touch their face because their hands are completely covered in clay. Their partner, of course, is more than willing to help… dab their eyes, catch a sneeze or five, let them absolutely scrub their face into a handful of tissues…