Listening to TD Jakes this morning and his interview with Charlamange tha God, one part truly resonated with me. People who have been fondled as a child always feel unworthy, like they are toys stuck on the shelf. It hurts how true that is. I never feel like I belong, I didn't fit in, and never felt worthy. The sad thing is that when my abuser said that he did not want relationship with me because it was too painful how I treat him like a toy on a shelf that I play with only when I want. Funny, I tried to fix our relationship to fix me. I wanted to feel worthy but he never acknowledged how he hurt me. It was always someone else's fault that his life turned out that way. Like it was my fault that he hurt me, a child who depended on that person as a protector. As Bishop Jakes said, I have to own the fact that I am worthy. I tell people all the time, "Why do you try so hard to fit in when you were born to stand out." It's time I eat my own words and own it. I am worthy! #iamasurvivor #iamnotavictim #iamworthy #acceptingandowningit #holdingbacknomore #itsoktostandout https://www.instagram.com/p/BsdQUxPFVHk_n-qdvfe0D9OJF9jzIoii2341AU0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1edzc82mbcubo