#hollowwasventing

[hollowwashere]

lowkey a vent but im pissed rn 😒

do y’all also get mad when someone makes “rude” jokes about your special interest or am I just over-sensitive 😞

[hollowwashere]

hey y’all I’m in my hashtag depression arc so I might be offline for awhile

[hollowwashere]

Conner fucking vents about his bullshit life that he’s never gonna get back

venting on tumblr highkey cringe but I don’t have anyone else to talk to😭😭😭fuck my fucking chungus life

I’m so fucking sad dude like I’m not even host anymore so I should be okay with not having to deal with any of this but got fucking damnit I don’t know why but sometimes I miss them even though they were the one who hurt me even if wasn’t on purpose like why did you do that I only know what I did wrong and that hurts like hell

like I know it’s been months, we’ve switched hosts and moved on, but I haven’t moved on. sure I can accept that they aren’t in my life anymore but god damn it I just want to onow if it’s my fault but I’m too scared to reach out and ask because I don’t wanna seem weird but it’s been eating at my mind and it makes me spiral no your explanation wasn’t good enough. maybe for someone else it would have been but for me it wasn’t.

not even the first time this has happened either. not with this person in particular but like the whole “ghost then shitty explanation” At fucking least I had an idea of what happened to my best friend and his situation. but with this it’s like you just straight up vanished. I don’t think you understand how much you hurt me. that long, agonizing week of me feeling horrible, thinking I did something because you wouldn’t talk to me, only to practically punch me in the face through the screen with some bullshit that you could’ve explained right off the bat. im not mad that you left me. Im pissed that you took so long to explain. I know some things are uncontrollable, but you left me in the dust and played it off like it was nothing. And then you posted some UTTER BULLSHIT about it being “messy.”???????? MESSY????? IT WASNT MESSY??? The only “messy” thing was how much I cried that night and wanted to fucking Kill myself because I was so confused and scared.

Whoever the hell is your host now, if that is even the truth of what happened, you made me feel horrible. I don’t care if he was dormant suddenly, YOU could’ve explained. YOU could’ve said ANYTHING. But you didn’t until MY cohost called you out on your bullshit God I know I’ve been vague but FUCKING HELL. I miss you man. I miss you. YOU. not anyone else. Just you. I just wish I could’ve said bye properly. you were the best. so kind, so amazing. made me feel like myself again. until that stupid fucking week. worst week of my life. one year of my life down the drain, and I’m still wishing for an explanation. a real one that I’m never gonna get. I feel like a fool. Stupid and hopeless. And I think I’m gonna feel like that forever, because of the lack of closure.

(^ changed this part to keep to vauge because it isn’t his fault this happened idont think and don’t want him to be outed like this if he somehow sees this)

I’m happy for my current host, I really am, but I just wish I could be happy, too.

[hollowwashere]

I grabbed my friend’s backpack and like jokingly pulled her back and she was like “do NOT do that. DO NOT DO THAT.” really aggressively like yes ma’am sorry do you want me go kill myself now too

Why am I lowkey about to cry💀 I didn’t even get a chance to apologize

[hollowwashere]

lyrics posting with slight changes + could be considered a vent

not made by the system host

(just realized these are all chonny jash(/tally hall by correlation) lyrics but whatever)

So if you insist on crying While our host is slowly dying Then I'll cut you lose and spare this noose the dead weight.

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All the rain comes down the same But not a drop can stake its claim Down they pour, with millions more, Won’t remember our name.

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I pin you, I know you, your facade is a scam You know you're making me cry, this is the way that I am

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Going once, going twice Let me lend them some advice Time is short, life even more Yet they wage this stupid war Going twice, going thrice Guess this means we'll tie the rope today

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Yo! Call him The Soul or call him his name Oh, label him whatever you would like Call him your host or call him insane If that will help you stay in line

(He’s a damn madman) [She’s a depressed fool] (Is that the one you truly want to be?) [Abandon her and we could live so free]

Warring all night, abhorrent and trite They seem to forget, they answer to he.

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Fathers of fathers, I know that I'm vile Let's see how long it takes to murder me Neither is wrong, yet neither is right Condemn him to the infirmary

[hollowwashere]

Vent warning 😁

FUCK I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED A VENT TO A COMMUNITY I DONT THINK IVE EVER DELETED SOMETHING SO FUCKING FAST

Anyways

Erm

😓 hmm

Y’all ever feel like after doing only one thing wrong that everything is your fault and that your life is gonna start crumbling

Me rn

Not because of the accidental post tho that was just be being dumb af

triple checking it make sure I don’t post this in CJtumblr again SORRY

[hollowwashere]

I genuinely don’t understand why teachers think they can give us students sarcastic replies then not expect “attitude” back

like gang all I asked was that I was uncomfortable with making a video and if there was any way I could do an alternative 😭🙏